Wednesday, May 31, 2006
hahah did the title caught your eyes?
haha i hope it did!

first thing on my mind now is WHERE IS MY BEST FRIEND / god sister(my mom gonna be her godmom) is? i wonder how is everything super worry for her. last night if she were to tell me where the place is i would go and find her . but she wont she want me to carry on my badminton training!

yes! i just join badminton yesterday for my school extra activity so as archery but archery we dont have training yet as my school is new not every facilities is up yet ( actually the whole school is not full bulid finish yet! ) so haha that is a new update on my life now.
i also went for this interview which i was specially invited to go for a poly forum thingy. My facilitator also invited another 4 other ppl in my class out of 25 hahaha..... i went to the interview and i saw someone whom gave my entire class bad grades as my original facilitator switch class with her. i am not gonna put a name to the face hahaa.....
i went to the interview and when i saw her i was like WTF. But when they ask the questions i reply whatever i could cause i am in an organisation which does stuff like the same and i am like in there for 4 years so ya i think i BLEW THAT LADY off her feet. cause i was sick the week before during that lesson so i cant talk much due to the cough .....

ok lesson now starting i carry on later
-MajorDuivel faced death at 8:24 AM

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Monday, May 29, 2006
who am i?
what am i ?
where am i?

i think i lost myself completely.


problems problems problems i think everything may crumpled down on me soon.
i am holding on and dealing with it well.
but how long can i take it ?

****SHOUTING*****

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yeah i think ineed a holiday! dont worry there is one approaching but i will be super busy! u know me busy girl! always busy this busy that like usual right!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:30 PM

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Sunday, May 28, 2006
what is worst?
having lots on your mind that you cant tell anyone?
or
you rather die than seeing a buddy suffer?

both of them are equally bad scenerio
i have lots of thing on my mind which consists of school and personal life
i balanced everything which i'm not tired.
But the most problematic is trying to do something right at the same time reducing the level of injuries...

what should i do?
i know how to solve the problem but it the aftermath that is killing me.....!

you can go and say WHAT kind of buddy are you to me! i wont mind but just remember i did what i could as a buddy by not giving u the blow as a whole but i reduce it by guiding u all this while i am suffering too u know inside it like you so wanna tell the person something it just u cant bring yourself to do it!
EVER been in this position? if u have i got nothing to say really!
i know ever since i been in my school i dont give answer directly but rather i would ask questions to make you think about it i am not making it harder but rather i hope u could think through everything and see what is missing to complete the whole puzzle..................
ya ppl who read this would say what a friend pris is !*sarcastic* great way in helping a buddy out!

i am so frustated ! HAHA when i am so frustrated guess what plays on the radio DHT-listen to your heart! haha....

i love the song sooooooo much just i quess we all should listen to our heart really go ahead and listen to it!!!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:23 PM

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Friday, May 26, 2006
i am rotting so as it going down with this blog...
i am not posting as commonly as i should.
i didnt mean that it a necessary for me to blog but it just like a place i leave some part of me here maybe like a pensieve( fr0m harry potter i think it spell this way) it like a bottle to take out some event of stuff out of my mind or i might be overloaded.

i been moody these past few days...
what is causing this?
if i were to tell u i am aimless in life = goal's-less in life = lost

hm... why i say goal'sless it like i always wanted a laptop, driving licences and etc but i have aready get what i want do what i want and gain what i want i dont know what else should i do with my life... what is my purpose of life ?

i was wondering what if i am not studying now? what would my life be ?
i know slacking at home would be nice but i know myself i have nothing to do for long i get bored.. but if i were to look for a job working at it for long i will also find it boring!
still educations is the best.......

talking abt education haha my friends and i came up with a theory after studying in my school for 3 year we might go crazy haha do funny stuff to destress our mind and i am not kidding we are so freaky stressed up everyday maybe one day i might join the guy who put on his headphone "singing" more of shouting out the words of the songs he does this everyday without fail. or follow my fellow block mates go crazy in the lift starting banging in it and stuff to destress but end up laughting when coming out of the lift. BUt currently me class is different we take it out on computer games.

i am like a tree!
why? hahaha...... cause i dont know why pppl always want to hug me?
am i so cuddley?
or do they feel better when they hug me when they are moody?
haha i dont mind my classmates (girls) wants to hug me even i am doing something on my project all i say is ok u want to hug go ahead haha andi concentrate on my work haha .... ............
oh ya why a tree ahaha i have two koala bear. haha but they can cling on but do nothing else .... okok i gtg now byebye!!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:02 AM

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
hehe just a recap of something funny that happen on monday!
dj paranoia was drunk we had booze which we canthahah and was super high in sch...
i am not gonna really write in detail cause i know my sch could track where i surf in school and would check it out so no point in giving them come to track the details haha and more troubles will come!

so what happen after lesson we hang out in class which later we went to the cafe for dinner.
my brother decided to join me in my campus so i say ok. So we were talking aboout something and we were like 5 crazy ppl who which 3 ppl had the thing in us but dj was the worst he had more then that... maybe one day i will really detail what we did hahaha
we say we know he is gay so stop acting (joking tone)
he laught and say : " yes i admit i was a gay!"
then we all laught like mad and saY wow u now admit u like guys aahaha
then he stood up and say : " I was a gay!"
we all tried asking him to lower his voice as there are lots of ppl in the cafe or canteen. but it ended up worst!!
HAHAA
HE SHOUTED : " I WAS a GAY but i am not longer one ! BUT U ALL HERE *pointing at us* ARE GAY!!!! "
all 4 of us look around the whole place and ppl were looking at us but the main point was were burst out laughting while scanning the room! but it funny and kinda embarrassing but thank godness we did have the whole sch there hahaha....................
-MajorDuivel faced death at 9:21 PM

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hi everyone! my sorethroat is over. but the cough and flu came to visit me!
i was coughing so badly yesterday.... which it hurts alot. then came my flu it was killing me together with the cough.
i wont type more now i need to do my work in school!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 8:46 AM

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Saturday, May 13, 2006
hi everyone! if anyone of u call me now i think u will find my voice different! yes i am having a sore throat! lucky i could still talk my voice didnt crack that badly it just different!
but the shitty part is the pain i feel when swollowing.

yesterday i was at home and mr leonard call me up asking me to join him in shoppping and i agree as i wanted to get something for my laptop. Ya i got a laptop sleeves from the appleshop and it cost me like $39 but anyway i wanted to get the crumpler one which is more expensive but the COLOUR IS LIKE SHIT! ANd also leonard thanks for the dinner... i feel bad also when u pay for my dinner....! But the ICE CREAM is good my friends who read this hahaha... maybe it u mag hahaha next time i bring u to that shop and eat then later order the ice cream it wonderful i tell u!

today i recieve my driving licence card hahaha...... super happy!

let me see what i have next week!
UT on tuesday and thursday
clubbing at indo chine on sat at the same time GO VISIT my friend/ classmate DJ paranoia at live impact hhaaha....
-MajorDuivel faced death at 8:09 PM

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
funny blog: http://www.colinandkero.blogspot.com/ (gay blog) it travelling around my class!
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=28503947
it colin and kero!

haha now my whole class is talking abt them haha! i find them ok duh? what more is a shocker!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:52 PM

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ok a follow up on my whole day!

like my earlier post i said i was in miss alancia class! it was quite fun actually haha I LIKE THIS facilitator alot! hahaa... ok i cant really type the whole details of her lessons but maybe parts of it!
today problem is WILL he get the job? it actually a guy trying to get a job within his company by switching from his current job a customer service officer to markerting ! and he didnt get the job and how can we improved on what he have done during an interview! (we were given a video to watch! ) yes and that is our problem haha....

so ya my classmates request miss alancia to interview someone.
they arrow nicholas so she did a interview in the class which was soooo real...
She knew that not many ppl are listening to what they are saying.
i was being polite by listening to them and looking at them.
Miss alancia ask nicholas a real hard question which got me (o_0) haha i was smiling at the same time haha cause it really hard to explain so she turn her head to the left where i was and winked at me hahaa.... i was slightly taken back hahaa.....

that one small part but the bigger part which is starting to irritated me is ppl asking question not to help others in learning it just like they ask things for the sake of asking!
which means their question could be a personal attack anytime which would lead into a heated arguement.
which really turns me off as it really pathetic as it waste my time and my classroom even tho it abit spacious but if some bad aura is happening i just have a feeling of getting out of there as the walls are like closing in on u!
there are many times i would walk out of the class to go to the toliet and by stepping out of the class i feel so much better..
this are feelings i didnt really show in class or anything cause no matter how i dont like it i wont say anything it just why make your life difficult by making enemy and making it worst for u to survive in class!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:48 PM

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now i am sch listening to miss alancia now hahaa....
i will post more later haha now in sch slacking abit here and there and today problem is WILL HE GET THE job.. haha now still thinking abt the cases hahaa having fun now with miss alancia hahahaa kk post more later!!!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:53 AM

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
it was supposely to be a GOOOD day *smile while thinking*

but THE STUPID FUCKING security guards at my secondary sch WONT FUCKING LET ME INTO THE SCH! damn i am pissed off...

anyway i drove to the sch hahaha it was fun tho.....! guess who i have in my car with me ?
i had jamie (* major DROOL*) VERNICE (*shock*) of course i need vernice there haha MY laopo mah! hahaha kidding kidding it not true. And last but not least DJ Paranoid/ paranoia (benedict) these 3 ppl were soooo lucky to sit in my car!(dad's car)

haha yes my dad gave me his spare keys to his car hahaa...
my other friends who i say i will let u sit my car when i pass i remember that promise and i will fulfilled it soon ok!

one thing is i am still not familiar with the roads so ya that why i dont dare to fetch ppl unless i know how to get there! haha my dad ask me to look at the road directory! hahaa

another thing was today at first breakout. i was naughty... my classmates some of them left the class so i saw yunting outside the door and suehley was holding on to the classroom door but talking to someone in my class so i stand there trying to block her from going out by putting my hand on the door making it look block out! hahah my main idea was to not let her get out! but what shock me was not suehley but it was YUNTING! she saw me holding on the door and i dun know what make her do it she walk towards me and hug me i was soooo shock at first i thought she wanted to go back into the class to get something. She hug me and i was so stun i think! i look at her real shock and confused. then i give up on playing a prank on suehley and walk out of class and talk to jamie while waited outside.
i did still talk to yunting tho just i was laughting real badly when i say : "u have the urge to hug me is it? "
then i told jamie the whole thing and i told her i know i am "cuddly" hahaa
this is what she said : " you are so CUDDLY!!"
-MajorDuivel faced death at 7:09 PM

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Monday, May 08, 2006
to add on what i wrote earlier! I AM SO SORRY MAG i didnt tell u aisha didnt leave singapore!
and yes ladies and gentleman this is my second thing i am SOOO HAPPY!

what happen?

this morning i woke up abit moody! but i still head for my driving test! on my way i met i saw maria. But mag sms me she was also moody! out of the blue after replying mag i got a message and i was wondering how could mag reply so fast! And it WAS AISHA sms hahaha she shock me too i immediately called her and talk to her till my driving sch. But also i promise her not to tell mag.

and i head for my warm up and test for driving class 3 (manual) yeah AND IPASSED i only got 12 demerit points and it was my first time taking the test i break the trend hahaha.... i break the trend !

my father was reallly happy.... so as my mom and cousin!

yawn i am tired haha.. i have a UT tomorrow and ihave not study for science yet!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 9:51 PM

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yeahhhhh i pASS MY DRIVING i gOT MY LICENCE now!!! plus there is another thing i am happy about but i am not gonna post it here! i will add it later
-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:18 PM

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Sunday, May 07, 2006
i just dont get it..... why things have to happen? or ppl have to force ppl to do things they dont want to do?

last night, i met up with aisha together with bob and mag.
mag and i was not smiling at all. even if we were it not a genuine one.
it was a flooding session last night . why?
around evening time i was then inform that aisha was force by her elder sister to go back to LA with them. But she didnt want to go back.

ya u get the picture now?

i am moody yes! but i was there for both my friends aisha and mag. i didnt cry or anything i am just like a heartless person who dont show emotions easily i know this. i also know even how i would always put up with a smile no matter how i feel!
in this world only a few ppl could look through the smile.

tomorrow i am having my driving test and it amerie birthday! :)
the worst part is i thought aisha will leave this morning at 5 am! who knows it tomorrow! :(
i guess now everyone hopes she stay...

ok abit about my sch life!
life is good. *grinning* well last week i got two love added to my list hahaa..... kidding then this week a wife? ahahahaa...... i know sound like a flirt right ahahahaa.....
sch was ok everyday i am on the internet! My UT(unstanding test) is on tuesday...
my classmates are all gamers like me haha... warcraft hahaha.......

good luck pris for your driving test tomorrow! HAHAHAH I AM wishing myself! *warning : mad person is in the house*
i was so in the mood to write again(bad) yesterday .... ok see ya!!!!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 4:49 PM

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
hi everyone......!

i think i am offically rotting hahaha.......

today i had miss alancia lesson... at first when i walk into the classroom i was so shock seeing her in class hahaha one thing i thought it was maths today and i'm the only one having this confusion haha everyone had we all were like am i in the right day today? ahahahaa

i would like to thanks some of my classmates nice testimonial on friendster. haha yunting i love you too.... Hm.. dont think of it the way u say in my testi too hahahaa...
i would like to say i am the good person they say i am bad.....

chrystal haha thanks for reading to tell u the truth i do read your blog just i didnt reply... i dont know i am so stupid now hahah what i am saying is so stupid

have u ever thought what u really want was not what u want?
have u ever thought what u think is best for u is not?
have u ever thought your life sucks but it's not?
have u ever feel lost but actually u are lonely?
have u ever needed help but u didnt ask for?
have u ever needed to talk to someone but just find it hard to do so?
have u ever felt that u need to lock yourself away but the actually fact is u need is to talk to your friend?
have u ever ask yourself question which u cant answer?
have u ever shut the whole world out and only listen to yourself?

hhhaaaahhaaa i think i could "have u ever" all the way........... i am writing crap again shit
-MajorDuivel faced death at 7:01 PM

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Monday, May 01, 2006
sorry me today not gonna write anything....................
will update soon!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:18 PM

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