Death, is only the beginning...

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

FInally i had enough! no matter what my mom does I WILL not accept his apology I WOnt! HE IS NO LONGEr my brother i said it clearly i have no brother and I am myself. he is just a guy staying at my house whom i dont know him!

even if i was force to accept it. I accept his apology this statement still remain. He can do whatever with his life and i wont interfere in his life and he DOnt interfere with mine as i wont be helping him any further. HE can go kill someone or get kill by someone BY all means *chuckle* I DONT GIVE A damn!

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gesh i starting to hate guys gesh i never used such a word HAte ok maybe dislike. WHy? IF the whole world guys is like my dad and my bro i think the world would die. VIOLENCE guys should be killed or hanged or even those who always TALK RUBBISH AND CRAP thinking they are smart. cause NONE of them deserve to live .............

I overly paranoid now. (but i know there are guys out there are totally nice i know a few of them)

emotionless signing out

-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:31 PM

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

i got lots of questions in my mind like:
1)If the brain cant grow bigger as like an adult then how can a baby brain size become he size of an adult brain?
or the brain in a baby is always that size just when we grow bigger the head become larger?
2) if human only need the minimum 7-8 hr of sleep then why do ppl still get fatigue? when meeting this requirement? haha

HHAHAHA STUPID question by me.

I got new shoes! gesh i am supposedto study today but i didnt idiot now i am so tired i could just die or shoot myself...

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:32 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007

Ever wonder what is like not to be bothered by anything and be just selfish and think of everything for yourself and no one else?
*psst in actually life/ realism it never happens*

If each and one of us have this built in problem solver how nice is that then we all will do things the same way and therefore we could be selfish and only care for ourselves as we know how the others will react as it the most cliché way .
Or everyone is so contented with their lives that we all are not bothered by anything how good that is?

*smile that is just a thought*
But if that were to happen I bet many people would be out of jobs. (Shrinks and all those that give people advice on how to do this and that.)

Everyone has a down day. And it shocks me that dogs have down days too. Well I guess maybe I made him so sad that makes me feel so sad when I see him to say the truth he is the one and only friend that stick by me almost everyday.

Sigh I want to REFLECT me, me, me here but I can’t gosh this is so frustrating. Snicker I guess this is how complex I can be.
Taking in all the possibilities that it might make people know me too well as there are others out there trying to figure me out.
Sad to say people those are trying to figure me out will never know because even the closest friend doesn’t even understand me on the holistic approach and neither would you get all the parts to get an atomistic picture of me.

To make it simple, u will never understand me well.
Haha…. If you do then it’s either is my mother or I. plus I known I always saying this when people said: “I know you well.” I would say: “Do you? Then how well do you know me?”

I will leave it here.

I wonder what is going on in my head haha………………….
TELL ME INNER SOUL! BURST OUT AND TELL EVERYONE WHO YOU REALLY ARE? What? I can’t hear you well?
WHAT!

OK I leave it here for real!
AND MAG the personality test is Below this POST BELOW!!!!!

-MajorDuivel faced death at 6:52 PM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

hm........................

i guess the only time for you to reflect on yourself is when u are having a holiday and no one is at home and you are all alone for a long period of time.
why would i say so. cause when u are alone in this long period of time yes you would be doing things like studying or what so ever but once u got tired of all that and being a world of your own you would be as defenseless.

at that stage you would be reflecting on your own life. scary isnt it?
if to you is not. but to me is one big hell of a horror movie.(:p haha i pick horror movie to describle scary haha what a metaphor oh and horror movie dun scare me if u know me well )

there are things that i wont blog it out here cause it should be something i keep quiet about.
there is this internal struggle to unleash it but a greater force to Keep it back.

haha THIS IS like what my personality test said i did online. quote :" people in this personality is complex..... etc"
the shocking thing before i did the test was i realised i should be a psychiatrist(ok it was like 1 of those choices) and this test really recommend me to be one too gesh i fit the profile Too well haha... being a INFJ
friends Go do it haha...

http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

then check for more details
http://www.personalitypage.com/high-level.html
http://www.personalitypage.com/careers.html

there is so much i want to say things here so my friend can read it, read what i cant say....
haha i gave u my personality type so if u want to know why i am such like this READ it u will understand ok..

plus i believe only 1 of u have my this bloggie and the other one doesnt remember this addy.

but then i will still force one of u to take the test hahaa cause i want to know. *evil smile* is it true haha and reliable this test

-MajorDuivel faced death at 6:25 PM

Monday, June 04, 2007

WHAT's UP PPEEEPZ!
*listen*
gesh it sure is quiet in here!!!

ok watever.( no i am not drinking that drink it yuck from what i heard)
my 2 weeks holiday starts. which i had already planned to study in this 2 weeks break as after this break it would be my UT again.

the craziest thing i done so far is to have 3 piercing at a go on my ears. (yesterday )Yes at a go and NO its not like on the top of the ear or anything(i would have my head chopped off if i do it) but i got 2 new pierce on my left year and 1 on my right. so that is on top of what i already got. haha...

the best part was when i was piercing the person from Xcraft was counting 1, 2, 3 and i was like ok where is my *da* haha... so after that i told her not to count just pierce then she laugh cause customers(majority of them) usually request for them to count but for me if u count 1,2,3 and at 3 it not pierce i would be like huh? hahaa... so i told her best dont count just do it haha... then my mom know that and told her it's ok dont need to count haha..

soon i am having my lifesaving test. basically i have fears too which is unable to see in water with my eyes open(this i have already overcome) the next thing is we need to blow bubbles to clear the pressure but once i do this i would panic. next thing is when i dun open my eyes i would be in a state of panic haha...

llast week thursday on vesak day. i went out with my classmates after going to temple. haha we went to watch pirates of the carribean: at world's end. the best part was we ONLy could buy tickets for the front row. so we took it but to our amaze it's not so bad. it was quite far back from the screen oh ya it's at cathay cineplex(Near PS). i had a fun day haha the cinema trip was real fun haha we were laughing every now and then i guess it because we all caught the joke haha... the whole day is a crazy and fun one like we were in school hahaa...
the next day we have a crazy day in sch again hahaa............

random stuff:
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in this broken home lay a body,
it doesnt need to reside anywhere.
in this broken body lay a soul ,
as equally broken as the home.
which is only filled with hollowness.
Oh now how do i piece this together?
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through the fog,
where i stand ,
neither am i able to see what is infornt nor behind.
even there is light it doesnt pierce through the fog.
what shall i do?
as this dwelling path is leading me no where.
as this is where i lost myself in a delusional world.
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-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:27 PM