Death, is only the beginning...

Thursday, April 30, 2009

ARGH……. I FREAKING HATE THE WEATHER!! I just got out from the shower a VERY COLD shower yet now I just got out not long ago I feel sticky AGAIn! ARGH... this is frustrating… I so wanna kill the weather for making people suffer!
Fang when u come back home prepare to suffer hor!

Gosh I am so tired... in a way... I met my cognitive facilitator in year 1 semester 2she was nice she gave me her name card and told me to drop an email so she will keep a look out for a part-time job if she encounters any. I wonder how many facilitators would do that for their students or students who turn to be their friends.
I found my childhood a bit, and I found one big part of it as I found one of my childhood friends. She told me I was sweet to actually be able to find her which she has a mixture of surprise and shock that I did to do it through face book. I guess I was purely lucky to actually do it, as I was basing on a 50/50 chance, either she has a face book or she don’t, so therefore I would consider that lucky.
She is very eager to meet up with me, she told me things I can’t remember when I was in the nursery which she remembered and I kind of told her a bit of what I remember in primary school for both of us thus we remember what impact us the most when we were young.

Now I wonder what type of person I am. Some say I am sweet in the way I do things while others find me a hassle and another group of people say that I’m easy to work with. I am confused, but I know I am a very mean person, who may be easy to work with (sometimes) or fun to be with, and have OCD thus some would see that as a picky person.
i need to myself. HAHA... i am still working on that..

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If life is formless I would really appreciate it, then we can slowly shape it the way we want it,
Without anyone to interrupt or push their ideas across as who you should be what you should be.
I guess this kind of ideology only work on paper.

And if everyone in the world learns to accept everyone I guess this world would be peaceful with no one to disturb the order of the world.
*yawn….* I cant write anymore my brain have been dead for the past few weeks.

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:06 AM

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Hey everyone…

Well last night I attend my godpa wedding. It was nice and good to see him finally Settle down : ) so there was tons of drinking to do haha… but don’t worry I don’t dare to push myself so much till I am drunk. Plus it was his birthday / wedding day, so that makes it double joyous celebration.

Today I got back home at 2+am and started playing Restaurants clubs or something on facebook hahaa.. darn I am hook to this game.i must be one hell of a night owl, with the intoxication of alcohol still I want to play games hehe… even though I was tired I still have to drag myself out of bed in the morning to do the routine stuff.

In the evening I was so happy to see siti and yousof they offered me help in manpower to volunteer for this event for Northwest cdc thus I was grateful that they were around to help me out plus I am able to see them. It was hell doing those checks and counter checking haha….

Ok I shall leave here now see ya!

-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:25 PM

Thursday, April 23, 2009

*SHOUT OUT LOUD* I FOUND IT after so many years! I found my childhood!!!

Ok*raise hand* I calm down… I found the soundtrack of Beauty and the beast. I think that is one thing I can remember when I was young. I love this Disney cartoon more than any other Disney. I am a fanatic to beauty and the beast my ost(original soundtrack) for beauty and the beast spoil when I was young due to over playing it.
I remember it always make me smile listening to belle singing as I could still see the whole cartoon in front of my eyes when I am only listening to it.

*shakes head* IM losing it haha kidding……….
Now what I want to ship myself to this BIG ICE cool place and stay there…. The weather is getting more and more humid.

Darn I only have cheap thrill now I am not happy anymore!!
Now I need to find something to make me smile again! 

TILL then

MD

-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:26 PM

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

My best friend is coming back to visit me again. Every time this friend came back to visit me I can’t help but feel emo. (I am not talking literally a person) I feel what I don’t want to feel again, but yet it is screaming so loudly to me. I thought this friend of mine have left me for awhile longer before coming back to visit me. I guess I was wrong, no matter how busy I kept myself the resonating voice just never fade away it just keep coming back and each time it is getting stronger.
Since when did I develop such a thing in me?

Was it 10 years ago? Or maybe longer or shorter?

Sometimes I wonder am I awake when I am really conscious. Because when I am sleeping I feel I am awake and when I am awake it is the vice versa. Sometimes I feel alive when I am unconscious but I feel dead when I am conscious. Tsk tsk… I am a screw up in the brain.

Now the question of how does it feel like staying in a mental hospital, is drawing me closer even though it was a curiosity but I can’t help but think that way. How does it feel to be in there? Locked up in a cell and be all quiet, thinking of basically nothing, there is no one there to disturb your thoughts. *dry laughter* now I sound like a crazy person.

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Time goes by slowly,
each moments passes by was like winds blowing at my face,
and each seconds my world of sanity is cracking bigger and bigger.
Till I hope it would just crumble and fall at my feet.
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*sing alot with tokio hotel- rette mich*
Zum ersten mal alleine..
In unserem versteck
Ich sehen nock unsere namen an der wand
Und wischt sie wider weg
Ich wollten dir alles anvertrauen
Warum bist du abgehauen?
Komm zuruck
Nimm mich mit

Komm und rette mich
Ich verbrenne innerlich
Komm und rette mich
Ich schaff’s nicht ohne dich
Komm und rette mich
Rette mich
Rette mich

Unsere traume waren gelogen..
Und keine trane echt
Sag dass das nicht wahr ist,
Sag es mir jetzt
Vielleicht horst du irgendwo..
Mein s.o.s im radio
Horst du mich?
Horst du mich nicht?

Komm und rette mich
Ich verbrenne innerlich
Komm und rette mich
Ich schaff’s nicht ohne dich
Komm und rette mich
Rette mich

Dich und mich
Dich und mich
Dich und mich
ich sehen noch unsere namen
und wischt sie wieder weg
unsere trauma waren gelogen…
und keine trane echt

horst du mich?
Horst du mich nicht?
Komm und rette michrette mich!

Komm und rette mich
Ich verbrenne innerlich
Komm und rette mich
Ich schaff’s nicht ohne dich
Komm und rette mich
Rette mich

Rette mich
Dich und mich
Rette mich nicht?
Rette mich

English translation:
In our hide away
For the first time alone
I still see our name on the wall
And wipe them away again
I wanted to trust you with everything
Why did you run away?
Come back
Take me with you
Come and rescue me
I’m burning inside
Come and rescue me

I cannot manage without you
Come and rescue me
Rescue me
Rescue me

Our dreams had lied…
And no tears are true.
Tell me that this isn’t true,
Tell me now.
Maybe you can hear somewhere..
My s.o.s on the radio
Can you hear me?
Can you not hear me?

Come and rescue me
I’m burning inside
Come and rescue me
I cannot manage without you
Come and rescue me
Rescue me..

You and me
You and me
You and me

I can still see our names here
And wipe them away again
Our lying dreams..
And untrue tears

Can you hear me?
Can you not hear me? Come and rescue me
Rescue me!

Come and rescue me
I’m burning inside
Come and rescue me
I cannot manage without you
Come and rescue me
Rescue me

Rescue me
You and me
Won’t you rescue me?
Rescue me

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:09 PM

Monday, April 20, 2009

Dear jess,
I am sorry but my cousin can’t get a wombat back for you. I got scolded by my cousin for being crazy, she thought it was the wombat toy till I told her “NO, the real wombat!” Quote what she said : “SIAO!!” hehe.. see I got scolded. She say they are irritating as when they are driving they always dashes across the road and she nearly knock them down hahaa.. And they Keep eating and eating. So these wild wombat are like all over in Australia hahaa.. So if you want one I think you have to GO to Australia and get one yourself hahaa…

To my other friends not only wombat but there are 345704957283872903940923409 wallabies and kangaroo who will dash out onto the road around so go catch one yourself haha..

M.d

Ok hahaha… enough of that little note. The weather is turning into a horrible monster; These few days it have been real hard for me, as it was always scorching hot and humid even when it was in the night. I would just melt and die.

I am so tired and sleepy. I have been sleeping late recently and I didn’t get enough sleep due to the hot weather. Now I need is a COOl place to sleep in and have no one to disturb me. *grin*
I want to go out of my house and enjoy my time with my friends but I am broke right now so I guess I have to wait till next month before I could plan for any gathering. (NPG I will meet up with u for my so call graduation celebration dinner)

Today, since I live so near to my Ex-poly. Those poly students are really noise, it seems like each year their volumes in noise pollution is not only increasing but the amount of smokers is increasing exponentially. I can’t even have a decent breakfast, due to the noise pollution. (if you know what I mean is that your mind is calm and quiet but the surrounding sounds are like disturbance) when I see them, even though the noise was increasing I can’t help but smile to myself as I was recalling back to my first day back in school for the new semester, and the time I send with my poly mates. Darn I really miss school, not because of the studies and project but those crazy things we do in school. Sigh~ things that I won’t forget *smile*

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There are so many things I want to say but I have sworn for secrecy thus I will leave it as it is till the time is ripe for me to be able to let the secret out. (nothing serious HAHAHA… EVEN THO I MAKE IT SOUND SO SERIOUS)

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 3:43 PM

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

ah Fang!!!! CAN U BUY ONE WOMBAT BACK??
help my friend JESS buy 1 WOMBAT!

remember your best COusin cares about YOU.DONT GET caught buying this animal hahaa...

-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:18 PM

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I just went to stomp and read some articles.
I realized that the country I am staying is not moving forward but rather backwards. Some people’s comments are prejudices others are different. Most of the time they are being sarcastic, criticizing others but they can’t look around and notice that they are one of those people who actually create trouble for others? Just happen they are not be caught by someone.

If we want to be like overseas countries, I would say we are far fetch from them.
Why?
They understand each other and have social tolerance. They don’t go complaining things here and there.

I feel our society is going backwards because no matter how educated our people are they are still people with no virtues. Just like ignorant, intolerance and thinking there are supreme bastards.(some of them I would say) it’s like education have been wasted on them.

Stating some examples: just like the block I stay in, there are people who are so proud that it’s seems that their ass is stick right under their nose and the way they look at people is like “I am the supreme one and you are the lowly one.” These people are highly educated but their actions are like, I understand due to their religion they can’t get in close contact with dogs. But hey, I have plenty of Muslim friends around and I know what it is with dogs in your religion and I respect that. Seeing a dog like this and screaming and shouting as if u seen a lion on loose. And blaming others and complaining about it yet there is no solid evidences about it.
This is like a rough example not the full story.

You see, how our country can progress when there are so many people like this around.
This is not talking about races or religion but rather on ethics of people.

If given a chance I want to go to a country and rear a tiger as a pet and if have a complain I wont give a damn and set my pet tiger on the loose

Pardon my random ranting

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the howling winds,
The pouring rain,
The endless mist covering the skies
Oh what shall I do to make it bright again?

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 4:26 PM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

I think everyone have been wondering what have the owner of this blog is doing?After graduation, I was kind of slacking at home as usual but these few days I been going to temple from Thursday evening, Friday and sat. Many people who see me might think I am free thinker or others but I am a Buddhist and even though I am not super religious (hardcore type). Ok... So Thursday I went to out to our 2nd home which is the temple to help out and it was filled with laughter’s as always. Friday was the same thing as for Saturday.

Just a slight note, at this temple they all like to hang out late and chit chat and play. Plus it is not filled with youngster instead it is filled with families. And the main language of communication is English *smile* so ~~last night~~ this morning when everything was over it was 2+ to 3 am in the morning and we decided we shall go Mustafa. So we went crazy in Mustafa and left town at 5+ am. On my way back I was not tired (we didn’t sleep the whole night) I view the most beautiful scenery with my own eyes as I was driving on the high way the dark blue skies were breaking and changing into clear, cool blue which I feel so peaceful.
So I slept at 6am and woke up at 2pm today. Haha… It been awhile I been like this. I think we are all training for hungry ghost festival haaha… we need to see what is our limit for staying up. Thursday night we went back at 2 to 3+am. And Friday night was also 2 to 3+am hahaa..

PS: fang, thanks!! i see u back in singapore in july.
PSS: get well soon jess and recover soon!

duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 5:44 PM

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Hey everyone YEAH!! We graduated! CLASS OF 2009!

Well honestly it is a bitter sweet thing. Bitter is that we may never get to see each other again, due to our hectic, crazy , new life unfolding in front of us(not applying to everyone). Sweet is that we finally finish what we went to school for; which is to get out of there ASAP!
If you would know me well I hate taking picture(since young haha i am always sulking when it comes to photo taking) and I have to constantly put on a smile which is very tiring, today I put so my best smile for Everyone I took photo with *finger cross* it would be good. Naturally I put on my best smile because I feel super happy for myself. Usually I dun see myself smiling SO much in front of a camera for my friends

Class of 2009 of DBME!
I WILL MISS YOU GUYS! AWW…. Especially all the crazy thing we do! *stick out tongue*

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:08 PM

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Graduation is drawing nearer. Due to my impatience I email the school yesterday and I am glad they got back to me today, and I could go pick up the invitation card tomorrow.

Oh I want to share something with my friends who read this. Last week, Thursday I was out in bugis to help my bro buy some stuff in Sim lim tower, on my way back to the train station as I was crossing the traffic light. I overheard a group of girls chit chatting, I know this is bad as I was eavesdropping but NO I didn’t I had my MP3 player blasting in my ears yet I still could overheard what they say. This is what I pick up one girl telling another one “when you get married make sure you still got market value and also when u are married!” I turn around and look at them. I turn around and started laughing to myself.

So you have market value when you are married or getting married. So when you are divorce or Unwanted U get a scrap value? Hahaha… this is like talking about cars, that is why I find it hilarious that this girls are talking about it. Market value, now I wonder what do they mean by market value? SO everyone of us are born into the year(reference like car) we have a value Till each year this price increase or decrease? Like depreciation I really wonder.

Ok enough of this rubbish.

Yesterday I drove my car to get it’s tire change and in the end. I end up changing the whole tire and rims. Now it is a SWEET baby ;17 inch rim with low profile tire. Of course it was my dad who made the decision and it was just like getting the tire change. Of course this is a second hand rim but it was a good catch. We just had to top up 20 dollars and we get the rims and tire haha…

Gosh I sound like a cuckoo fella now..

TILL THEN,

May all the sinner sin and the angels sin too….

MD

-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:48 PM