Death, is only the beginning...

Sunday, January 31, 2010

If my life was like an electronic circuit board how good is that?
When I have someone who screw up my life it would be treated like a components is faulty and all I could do is just remove that component and replace a new one in its place. So how good is that?
And if it was that easy how good it is for everyone. And let’s say my life is so badly screw up and I can’t repair it I could just change the board, re-program my characteristic, personality, lifestyle and those important things that is me which was backup earlier and everything would be okay and over and good.

Sigh~ if it was that easy then I think everyone in this world would thank for such a good idea.

today went to trim my hair. End up that person cut or rather crop off quite a bit.
Sigh~ hahah I cant do anything now, can I ?
its been a long day and I am so tired now running here and there and stuff. There is so much on my mind that it is killing me. Tomorrow it would be the DAY for me to register for UNI so hell yeah wish me luck ya. ;)
suddenly it feels like I have the world weight down on me haha

i realised that sometimes i wanted to post something i will leave it on my word doc in my com for so long and just carry on another day ahaha... sometimes it was like 2 days ago i wanted to post the blog entry haha i dun know should i say i am busy or should i say i am that lazy

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:40 PM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

A few days ago I spoke with a taxi driver and he was very knowledgeable and educated me on things which was not taught anywhere; especially textbooks. And I appreciate that this wise old man shared his experience with me and it enlighten me on things I didn’t even thought of.

Yesterday I also spoke or rather chit chat with a friend of mine. She shared with me things and I was shock to know what was actually going on. Irony, like the saying everyone has their own problem to face but does everyone understand what they have done to cause the other to feel problematic?

I sometimes don’t know how my brain function I may be talking to u and thinking what to say but at the back of my brain there is another part working on its own and thinking of other stuff. I think this is call MULTI tasking simultaneously but what I hate it when Both of them are trying to get out and my words become gibberish I seriously need to sort my thoughts out sometimes as they don’t run in the same line.
V day is coming so as Chinese New Year.
I remember to buy a new year card for a friend I felt so bad as every year without fail for CNY, New year day she will send me a card. Time to return the favour I always forget to send one out to her as I didn’t have the habit to send a card during festive season. LOL… I just bought one and I am gonna write and Post it out soon or else I will just surely procrastinate it till the last minute to send it out.

Major Looney DUIvel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:16 PM

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Today I had a nice chat with “my girl” in san diego. Lol… we tight yah? (I hope we are) Kidding just joking

Anyway, today I realized one thing. I dun think I realized it, like suddenly I have been pondering on this for a long time and I think my life is like that song from bee gees – I started a joke. I feel it has been a joke that I would be laughing at when I see it and it seems just like the song in a way.

just now when I was looking at my MSN list. There were so many people online but none of the people were the one I want to talk to at the moment. Then I wonder do we have so many ppl on msn just to show that we do know people or we were simply lazy to remove them just in case u need to find people when in need?

I think I am in a denial stage hahaha… I don’t know I really don’t know what I want now, what I want to do. Haha and I don’t even know what I am writing anymore.

Ps: If you read this ciara hahaha.. yes I will go master that song. So when I master that song you will be the one to hear it first ;)

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:30 AM

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Recently I have been riding an emotional rollercoaster. I felt anguish, despair, disappointment, dejection.. and others . Only a small gradient of happiness which could be easily extinguish by the other feelings.
I had officially given up hope in people and trusting them. And I can 150% say this out loud in words that I don’t trust anyone, anymore. Humanity is made up of only 1 category of people and that is people who have bad written all over them. (To my friends just read only as this doesn’t affect my friendship with you guys’ hahah) you would wonder why I would say there is only one type/category of people and not said two; good and bad, this is the reason why. In everyone there is good and bad but how often are we 90% good? And how is it possible to use percentage to weigh how good or how bad you are. In western views they believe in the 7 deadly sins and I agree with it. These 7 deadly sins are in build in everyone.

I do admit that I do, DO some of these deadly sins I won’t say I am proud of what I did. I am not that nice as what everyone thinks I am. Even if you come up to me and say “you are honestly a nice person and a good one too” and my reply would always be “I am not as good as you think I am”.
Sometimes I wonder if I could come up with what is killing the kind/good nature of the human race.
but this is like the top 3 things I currently don’t like.

1) The art of human mouth; which is using your mouth to kill people without physically touching them and such examples are Gossiping, backstabbing… and other mouth related activities such as hurling abuse at others

2) Being overly realistic; some people are so realistic that it would make the good hearted people to change. (I have seen people doing this so much that I despised it. I don’t want to give an example but I think everyone of us would be able to get an idea on this one. )

3)the almighty brain; some people would overwork their brain and try to analyze everything; looking beyond the invisible line, they scrutinize everything and keep thinking of this and that and not use their brain to do the right thing but rather look at things that doesn’t even bothered them.

I notice recently I have taken a liking to take bus trip to places. I usually will take the train to get to my destination but for these past 2 days I been using the buses instead. I am not sure but somehow I feel that when I am taking the bus I get to see what I usually miss out and not notice at all. Like today when I was on my way to yishun. which I could easily take the train and be there in 10-15 mins but I took the bus instead.(Which would be a slightly longer journey) I started to look at the surrounding and try to absorb what I saw today, and what fascinated me the most today is the clouds in the skies.
I know it sounds stupid but I saw two different group of clouds merge together and I started to wonder to myself ‘how is that even possible?, the clouds are different in mass; there was one which was in a darker shade of color that the other and It was going to pour. thus how can they just merge just like that’ the other thing I started to wonder is ‘how is it possible for the clouds to look fluffy up in the sky and if it is all about water then is it possible for us to recreate clouds on land, like in a lab?’

You see for a moment I was like a 5 year old kid wondering and looking at the world as if I never seen it before.

I had a weird dream last night and it left me pondering at it the whole day. It seems as if I am looking at a story unfolding in-front of me. I am still trying to piece out why I dreamed of that. And could it be because I listen to lala shu’s song on repeat too many times that it triggered a weird dream.

I better go now or else I would have a hard time to wake up tomorrow.

ps: My friends don’t worry haha I will trust you all enough to call u friends hahaha..

Major D.

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:45 AM

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I think a lot of my friends are facing the same thing.
A letter from CPF, asking us to pay the money we use for our education for our education for 3 years. I would find it a big shocker to open up your letter box and see a letter asking u to pay around $7k. it would not only be a shock but a thing that we all would be like.. “HOW AM I GOING TO PAY?” as most of us are not working and still studying it would be like the end of the world and for those who are in university it would be an added burden as they are already loaded with bank loans for their university school fees. For me now I would also be pulling my hair a bit.

For me now I have settled all the documents I need and submitted to the right channels.
1 down and 1 more to go and that is my university application.
After hearing Adeline was struggling to cope with her test and get good grades I am starting to worried too. 1 year in university is about 6k+ so do you get what I was trying to say. I don’t want to waste money in university. I guess I am mentally prepared to the core to just dive in and Fight all the way out of hell.

Currently whenever I listen to utada hikaru’s Goodbye mr Lawrence – FYI. It gets me so happy at the same time relax. Haha sounds like I am in loved with utada hahahaha

DAYBREAKER IS COMING OUT… ANYONE WANTS TO GO WATCH IT??????? I hope it opens on 20th
next week only Wednesday I am free. Then 28th then it would be in feb 8 onwards hahaha… if not we all have a meal how abt that?

ps: if you want to ask me anything go (when i say anything i really meant ANything)--> http://pthree.tumblr.com/ask

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:41 PM

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Today I had brunch at the coffeeshop downstairs and I started to reminiscence my poly days. And it was the second day that they all came back from their holiday break. One year ago today, I was in class with my friends stressing over the problem thrown at us for us to solve. Something like it would add on to our knowledge. I was smiling at myself for all those little things we all did in school, even in the coffeeshop I remember some good-old times. And now it is already a year since I graduated everyone is walking their own path now. I missed my friends as how we will always organize movie outing after class to de-stress, how we would get together to solve the day’s problem, how we grumble about our team-mates especially those smokers aka slackers. And how we always have mini-party in class with everyone doing their things but sharing what they bought from the bookshop.
Another thing is how much we complained about our final year project.
For me I miss everyone and I really want TO hang-out with them again.
Movie outing anyone?
I must go organize an outing for my FYP teammates first.
Then with our DBME usual gang

-----
this world is filled with darkness,
sometimes darkness is blacker than black,
wider than the horizon and deeper than a black hole.
Now tell me why would someone want to sink into darkness?
If vengeance and revenge is the answer, then I would say you are childish.
For me I live in darkness, therefore I didn’t sink in it.
At least I know how far is enough and how much is harmful.
Would you know?
Would you even find out what you are getting yourself into?
What I would say in the end is that the one consumed totally by darkness is you.
For we are similar in certain way but also different at the same time, I will still walk under the sunshine but still live in the dark, whereas you live in darkness and walk in an unlit path. That where we are different *evil smile*
----

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 5:24 PM