Death, is only the beginning...

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

It’s been a while since I blog. Today seems like a good day.

Firstly I was being entertained by Ciara in the afternoon. She can really come up with some good and funny idea which would make me smile the whole day when I start recalling what lead her to say that idea or statement. Babe if you are reading this, I seriously think that is not a bad plan about the cars and house and I won’t mind about it, it’s worth trying haha..
Let’s see how it goes later on then we can solidify the idea *snicker*

Secondly, I met Jessie unexpectedly in the bus while going to the train station. (I notice her and walk up to her actually) And to Jessie “HIHI, it was great to see you again : ) ” ( I was wondering should we Have a gathering just like the one we had with ez what do u think?)

Thirdly I went for the PAYM National day rally discussion group and I met some nice people. SO yeah.. I would be considering joining their YEC lol…. Time to move on from where I was volunteering, I need a bigger ocean for me to steer my boat.

Lastly, It was weird how I email my admission officer in PSB academy about when will I get my admission package at 12 noon and she replied me not soon after that which I didn’t notice earlier only now. She told me that my offer package is ready and she is sending it out today which I would receive it in two to three working days. I am so excited On top of that I have two unit exempted and I would only need to do 2 units for my first half a year. Well I am trying to clear my doubts with her on the exemption units for future units which need them as prerequisite in order to advance.
*HAPPY* SO NOW I better go sleep so tomorrow I can go to my secondary school and visit my lovely teachers whom I never visited them in the past 3 - 4 years.

M.D

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:37 AM

Sunday, August 22, 2010

When I open my eyes I don’t see anything else except the same old, same old.
When I close my eyes, how I hope that I won’t never open it again.
As every time when it reopens, I am always faced with the same old mellow drama.
When I turn around to look for someone to talk to, I couldn’t find anyone and the only one I could turn to is my dog, who was always my best best friend in the world. Always there supporting me in his own way and listening to me talk, I find it easier to talk to animals as they make me calm in a weird way. As every time when I stroke them and watch them it made me forget all my problems and anger. And they would be around me 24hrs every day, I do want to bother my friends until I find that the bottle in me is too full and it’s time to pour the water out a little to keep my sanity intact for awhile.
Even though I always said I am filled with lots of drama in life and I won’t want to entertain external drama. But somehow I feel that if I have a new episode of drama in my life, it might break the chain of pattern in the same old flick into something new yet nostalgic. (Gosh what am I saying?)
I guess I am keeping too much things in that slowly I am breaking from the inside.

I better go sleep now.

MD

-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:50 AM

Saturday, August 14, 2010

*wave hand*
Dobraye ootra (good morning in Russian)
So much happen this week.

Firstly, I was asked to join a friend of mine for the preview for Youth Olympic Games Singapore. She gave me a call on Tuesday asking me very last minute if I’m free to join her, which I gave a long pause to think about it, because usually I won’t entertain last minute appointment. I gave a quick thought about it and since I was free and I am bored of getting stuck in the house I agree to join her. After the phone call I couldn’t help feel that she might have gotten the date wrongly, and true enough 1hr later she gave me a call informing that it is actually on Wednesday.

So on Wednesday I have a packed schedule.
I woke up did what I needed like have breakfast and did some errand as usual. When I got back home I chill out a little in front of the computer before giving my precious Doggy a bathe. It was getting on my nerves with those irritating pest called ticks and seriously it can TICK U off. (LOL… it rhymes). The schedule was so packed like back to back to each other, after bathing my dog and did some spot checking on his body I got myself ready and went for my dentist appointment. And true enough I arrived there 3 minutes late due to the rain. Well the dentist I was praying and hoping it was not the same dentist I had previous who was pretty scary.(When I said pretty I didn’t mean she was pretty but as in PRETTY SCARY, ROFL) But he was cool, haha and gentle, the other one made me scared as she was rather rough and it hurts even by thinking about it. *smile* I know which dentist to ask for when I make my next appointment in February.

When I was done with my teeth I went back home feeling happier, cleaner teeth and not hurting that much does make my day. When I got back home I only had 15 minutes to relax myself with some music and get myself ready to meet up with Miss J near my house.

The entire YOG opening ceremony is grand and awesome. Something I would much expect comparing to our own national day which is 5 days before the official YOG opening ceremony.
After getting back home pretty late,as I went to have supper with Miss J somewhere near our area, even though we took a cab back, I was so tired and zonk out that I still went online to update a friend on the fireworks.

On Thursday morning I am shocked by a status update on FB, Ciara was in an accident. Thank goodness she is alright now. Yup ciara if you read this I was rather concern too lol... It was nice of you to drop me a sweet message on my face book wall. (After your incident I went to told my best friend, YOU BETTER NOT GET INTO ANY accident or incident, don’t make me worried about you guys lol)
Well, it’s late now I have some more duties to do tomorrow.

Blazing the skies with darkness,
Major Duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:00 AM

Friday, August 06, 2010

I was so beat to the core, seeing my younger cousin getting married was a very taxing matter, but I am happy for her.

Today I was so beat tired, that I didn’t have much problem falling asleep last night even though I had an hour of nap before my dad came to wake me up to check what I wanted for dinner.

Somehow I can’t help but re-run everything that happen in the morning. The feeling of explaining to some of my aunties what I am doing and what are my plans.

Just now I was playing a game on face book, even though I was playing at the back of mind it was thinking about something. I was wondering if I should open up myself more to people. There are too many things I kept inside, so much that I feel engulfed by it and I forget who I am. Somehow after seeing my little sister get married I think it open up my mind. That some things in the past shouldn’t be harbored on and whatever bad things should be buried somewhere and never be brought up again. I think I have grown up again; I am starting to move on and understand what I couldn’t comprehend in the past. I have a goal now, and I am going to work towards it.

No matter how pragmatic I may be, I could still be waiver by temptation and other distraction.

I feel like going against a quiz answer and I shouldn’t be pragmatic about one thing it said. I am going to be all opposite for what it said. Lol… if that happens I will lose my bet to suki instantly LOl… anyway I can’t be bothered if I lose or she lose, it was just a fun little bet.

Major Duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 4:13 PM

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

Whee.. i got everything settle.
now i just sit back relax myself first before i recieved my admission package.

tomorrow i got to wake up at 4am to go my cousin house.

somehow on the back of my mind i am worried. (as usual)
Gosh.. i so need someone to tell me PriS it will all work out, you know u will do it.
But even though i know i will be focus enough to study, but i cant help not to shake off the unease.

today, i finally gotten over the whole I WAnt to play mood againn.
when i came online today, i was grouchy.
i look around trying to find something to do online.
BUt what bounces back at me was boredom.
i went facebook, msn and surf the internet but i cant help Feel bored to the core.
Even now, when i sit infront of my computer i cant sit for long as i have that suddenl urge to go to my room to read my novels, or do something else without the internet and computer.

I guess the time have come again for me to stay away from computer for awhile again.
i really want to go out to have fun with my friends. I realised i been coop up at home for too long
i am starting to feel the effect of technology. here is teh irony thing, when i was studying for my english test, for the writing. i came across lots of ideas of how computer and internet and tv has destory us. But knowing all these doesnt stop us at all, look at us we are all addicted to computer by one way or another.

i wonder is there anyone like me who have such redrawer syndrome lol... Mine is a temporary thing because i am so BOred out of my wits after studying so hard for 2 weeks+ and when i got to wait for 2 weeks for my results things starts to shift alittle as i realised that how i miss MUGGINg.. Haha... my brain suddenly have a craving for knowledge.

guess i better go now, as i had already look like shit already with insomnia for these past few days. i dun wan to look back tomorrow and i have a dinner the next day for this Joyous moment. lol..

I WANT TO GET OUT of my house but not spent alot of money. (ppl who know me well, knows i am rather thrifty)

MAJOR DUIVEL

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:52 PM

Monday, August 02, 2010

Ladies and gentleman, Presenting the happy ~~little girl~~ person.

I got the results I wanted for my IELTS test. It was a pain in the neck I took 2 weeks 2+days to prepare for this test and seriously I think good practice paid off.
Now I can go apply for my course : ) Biomedical science under UWA(university of western Australia)
before my results came out I was in a mess, I kept thinking what would happen if my results doesn’t meet the entry requirement and I wont want to go retake the test again as it cost quite a lot for just a English test. So I had a backup plan in place in less than 2 days, which after I got my results I was in the lost again as I finally got the results I wanted and had to choose to do business or science. [problem for ppl like me who do things practically and logically will always consider all the factors first before making a choice]
I was shocked when I saw my results as in shocked and when it sink In I physically bang my head on my table top and my dad was staring at me. With me mumbling “WHAT SHOULD I DO?”, “what course should I take?”, “I took the test because of science and it is not cheap, WHAT should I do?”
In the end I did the easiest way out by seeking enlightenment and advice in a Holy way.
So Friday was a great day, followed by sat which I meet up with my godmother and family to have a gathering with my family for a meal. It was awesome but one thing I will forever remember, I MUST always follow my principles of drinking. If I don’t follow my rules and regulation for myself, I will suffer again and that is one thing I won’t Want to go through again. (i always obeyed my rule but that night i sort of heck care it)

On Sunday morning I was not drunk, my mom and dad saw me walking normally and all sober but my body had to reject the booze and I realized it was my mistake because my food was not even digested and I had actually rejected what I ate. When I woke up 3 hours later and to my horror it was all like purging with an empty stomach and it was horrible.
Which I received a VIP care from my mom as if I was a very sick child; I was really sober not drunk or anything just feeling very uncomfortable with the rejection of acid.

Up till now my stomach muscles are aching like crazy due to the activity I encounter.

This is a busy week, Application for studies, auspicious celebration on Thursday and Friday for my cousin.

Suddenly, after my clouds were cleared my eyes could see clearly now.
I realized that I am no longer at the cross road anymore and I am walking on without regrets.

It’s a new chapter in life for me and I will embrace it to the fullest.

Major Duivel is back

-MajorDuivel faced death at 3:04 PM