Death, is only the beginning...

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Dig this, if we were to put everything in our life in a box. I guess we can break every little pieces up and place it in the box and never want to fix it back. If every piece is equally important as what makes you, you, then I guess it doesn’t mean anything anymore. Parts and pieces don’t mean anything when you have forsaken them as they become mere pieces of rubbish to someone else and to the world. And on the label of this box it would be a big, "unclaimed rubbish" written on it.
What has happen to me, why am I becoming more and more skeptical to things and to everything around me, I think this is what happens when you grow up and tend to broaden your mind to everything.

After watching agora, I have a sudden urge to be a philosopher looking at it as an interest. Not something I can stand listening to all the contradiction lay out by the great thinkers. Somehow after watching the movie ‘agora’ I felt sad.(A great sadness which I can’t figure out why up till now and it send me thinking greatly.)
And I agree that somehow science and religion doesn’t go hand in hand together. If there is such a religion called Philosophy I guess I would be on that list now. Rofl... Just a joke.

I still like my religion and I somehow work out an equation for myself.
Faith + hope= religion, but religion ≠answers + self.
Self= morals + ethics.
Ethics= social norms + self
answers= science + philosophy - faith-hope
therefore religion ≠ answers but generate faith and hope.

HAHAH I am messing with you if anyone work that out as math’s it won’t work hahah as that is not a logical equation. That has nothing to do about what I am going to say below. And if you would really think I could come out an equation for myself then you have look highly on me.

But during my poly days and I attend reasoning thru the ages, I had some kind of regret taking up that module at the same time I feel grateful as I pick up a few learning point. In that module I learn that due to our vast interest in getting answers a lot of us would be asking fundamental questions, and while searching for these answers there are many various organization or should I say blocks which will try to create a answer or reject a answer to create a new one or work on the existing answer and modified it. Now, do you always look at your answers and not doubt that, ‘Is this true?’ ‘Is this correct?’ ‘What if it is wrong, should I still follow it as it had been accepted by the vast majority?’
And every time when we don’t have an answer we will always and had always turn to something which no one can proved it’s the absolute truth. (I bet I sound like a realist now a 150% realist) now I think I might go research on philosophy theories soon hahaha..
(I HAVE TO DECLARE FIRST WHAT I SAID WAS NOT DIRECTED At any direction it’s a very neutral point of view where I have to proclaim again the equation is not true as it was a messing around thing as I was playing a word link game. Thus I have rejected my thesis which I work out an equation for myself. Somehow I got that Idea from AGORA.)

MD

-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:35 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Sometimes when some things are in front of you, we tend to pretend we never see it so as to see how long this Charade is going to last. And when it was so obviously seen that everyone is just a pawn for someone else game of survival that sometimes pawn would have its limit on where they stand.

People do you hear the call and cries of others deep inside them that they never voice out, Not everyone will Share what is going on in their life to everyone and not everything you assume is true. There is always another side of the story which was not seen by others.

-MajorDuivel faced death at 8:13 PM

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Good day everyone,

I have been busy, and recently I notice it takes me two weeks to change my sleeping pattern and by the time the clock hand strike 10pm I would be sleepy and would be looking forward to go sleep. But it only takes 2 days to make me break that cycle. *chuckled* how impossible it is to carry on that turning in early cycle.
these few days it was quite eventful though. My brother came back from Taiwan bringing back lots of stuff and I especially love the 太阳饼 (Sun biscuits) it is so milky and nice, I don’t take sweet stuff though but this got me loving it. And with the tidbits he did bring back funny stories to tell. And I was flabbergasted that my brother even bought something for mikey. He got him a ADORABLE T-shirt haha.. it was super-duper cute shirt(dog shirt).

Plus I had my Chinese birthday and my folks wedding anniversary celebration together since it was the same day. It was kind of nice to have the whole family down eating dinner but it is not nice when someone raise a topic which can kill the whole mood of such a joyous moment.
I also took my dad’s collection piece bicycle for a stroll. *smirk* the seat of the bicycle was horrible, first thing first let me describe to you what type of bicycle it was. It was a road racing bicycle, like those you seen in a triathlon. Honestly speaking it was nice riding the bicycle but the only thing I didn’t get use to it was it was very different from a normal bicycle as the wheels are small in width thus the balancing needs to be precise hahaa.. Because I was so scared of spoiling the bike I was being very careful and I look very clumsy on it. Next thing is the seat OMG.. its horrible YOUR BUMS WILL HURT.

Guess I need to keep cycling on it to get used to it, my dad scolded me saying how bad I was ridding on the road itself. But what to do I was having a phobia as I can’t see what is coming behind me and just getting use to this bike and I have to cycle it on the road with cars zooming past me. SCARYYY is the experience. (I got a backache from the cycling and a hurting BUM) too much cycling on a mountain bike that I forget the use is for different terrain but still a mountain bike would be much easier to cycle but the speed is not as fast as the racing bike.

I AM still waiting for my UNi acceptance letter, Adel was being nice telling me her acceptance letter she got it was around April 13th so I am just looking forward for it then.

Till then tata,
MAJOR Duivel.

-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:15 PM

Friday, March 12, 2010

Today after volunteering or rather I request to leave early. Dy was cool with that since this is one of the best ways for her to ease out her guilt that I actually help her out a lot for the past 1 week rushing for stuff.

I meet up with my gang of friends and we went to IMM for Fish and Co. we were gathered because they want to do a back pay for my birthday. So yup I decided to go as I have not been out with them for a long time. The meal was ok hahaha.. V spotted that I was in a foul mood and was trying to get it out of me when we were on the way to IMM. I replied her with a smile and said “see, there is nothing wrong and I am not in a bad mood” but she didn’t believe me and said that she won’t force it out of me.

After the meal, Vanessa Whipped out a present and said “This is from us, now u have to guess what it is” (it was actually a HEAVILY wrapped up present with lots of layers of props to confused me) I couldn’t tell what it was… My brain keeps telling me “Face towel”. “Toiletries” then I asked what kind of thing is it u need to give me a clue so I could narrow it down. And I gave examples to them but they didn’t wanted to give me till mag said: “Something that uses your brain or rather your mind?” Woah this kind of clue make me think so hard and Books was in the list. And I keep saying A book? , I Dun know.. then Sudoku really came to my mind and mag blurted it out “Don’t tell me you thought it was a Sudoku book?” and I laugh and said it was actually on my mind haha… till the unwrapping till the last stage I still couldn’t make out the shape of it and when I give up they let me see my present, my reaction was just “Oh…” in a monotone way with a straight face. And everyone on the table was shocked by my reaction as they didn’t expect me to be like an ASSHOLE.
half of my mind was wondering what has my mind got to do with SIMS 3 ? and the other was I was expecting something sophisticated But I am happy except I feel bad at my reaction given as it was 360 degrees out of the way. I told them they should say “Entertainment” then I would be closer hahhaa..

THANKS A LOT… I WILL GO INSTALL the game tomorrow as now even I am dying to try it out. My mom Is watching her drama on the main computer. : )
Ps: gosh I feel so beat.. I am so lack of sleep now .. * yawn*

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:04 AM

Saturday, March 06, 2010

Today, I am all stone like crazy when I woke up. I felt my heart aching like crazy when I see mikey looking down and he seems to be in pain. Until couldn’t stand it I want to bring him to the vet which end my fun with someone. Who actually remember of me in her SCHOOL Dance and then text me but her text didn’t get through to me hahaha… so in the end she still went against my order when I say DUN text me again and she did it anyway.
Thanks a lot again the mystery person for your text message.
hahaha today is still my birthday in a different time zone, a few of them started to text me wishing me a happy birthday.

now seeing how painful and hard it was mikey to walk, my heart completely broke into pieces as my best Best friend was hurting and he is not enjoying have a cone on his neck to prevent him from licking and biting his paw and now his front left paw is in a bandage. (tomorrow I will remove the bandage so that I could clean it and put medication for him.

I wonder how he is going to sleep tonight. I seen the way he walks around/hop around and how he tried to sit down and it is very disturbing for me to see him like this.
Hehe… I went to birthday party today and it was nice hanging out with some of my poly mates not everyone was invited as not many ppl know him hahaa……….

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:59 PM

Friday, March 05, 2010

Ladies and gentleman (if there is any)

I had a blast week, I have been so tired and busy of course. I have been volunteering and helping a friend out so it was nice doing something to take up my time at the same time I felt my friend was rather pitiful so some of us as friends actually stay back after our allocated time and willing help her out. I guess she is so grateful and touch by us that what we have been doing has long past the grateful and touch meter but it has went into the sector of feeling bad. She felt bad that we stay back doing things which we could just pack up and leave and let her do it all alone which I doubt she could finish it alone.

A few days ago, a friend of mine (someone I dun want to mention their name) was sitting next to me. This friend suddenly call out to me and merely touch my right arm getting my attention to ask me a question, I was drawn away by my work immediately (as I did told that person give me a moment) as I felt a warm feeling gushing through me after that touch and it linger awhile I think because my friend had patted my arm but left it there for awhile. Seems like I have been “touched” hahaha… I couldn’t concentrate when that same person call out to me again. Rofl… I don’t know why but i guess I am so deeply “touched” that I am confused hahaha…. Somehow it felt good to have this feeling. Or maybe I was cold and that touch kind of felt nice hahaha on the skin. I seriously don’t know but I guess it must have been not many ppl around really did pat me on my arm and left it there that their body heat seep into my skin and maybe for that moment I felt that I was alive.

today it was my birthday and it was kind of funny. Because I was so tired from everything, I had tons of messages from friends wishing me happy birthday and 1 of them actually call me up as I log off msn early. ROFL…. I GOT A birthday song which make me laugh at 12+am. After the bombarding of message at midnight I crashed on my bed and was dead to the world till 7+am and I thought it was Saturday already ahhaha… and my birthday is over. And with hard thoughts on it, it’s still Friday and I still need to go do some volunteering work. It was like a joke to me as I thought it was over as it was just getting started. I guess my friend DY learn some new stuff about me hahaa… as I don’t specifically tell ppl what I like as I usually get it myself.
I have gotten 3C’s today. Starting with a Chocolate Muffin as a birthday cake from Dy, then in the afternoon I gotten a small Chocolate Cake from jarain and in the evening Pauline gave me a Chocolate swiss roll. HAHAHAA…. Dy laugh along when I cringed my face when I said “Why is it chocolate again?”
Other than that my whole day was quite ok except I was pretty zonk out now. I even went for training and didn’t even hang out with my friends. LOL… tomorrow I would be busy again, a birthday party to attend to haha AND YES I GET TO SEE MY FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSS and my BF's will be hanging out with them next Thursday and Penguin i will try to arrange time to hang out with him hahaa...

I guess I had already looked past birthday as it felt meaningless to me already. I cant help seeing it as a normal day but thanks to my friends who text me and stuff, you guys rock as you guys make me feel deeply grateful.

Ps: I finished the chocolate muffin and I guess and hope I don’t get sick. My friends who know me well enough will know the reason why. HAHA I force myself to finish it (oh ya i wrote this without any brains on and i guess there is lots of grammer and errors hahaha forgive me on that)

Cheers,
Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:59 PM