Sunday, September 30, 2007
O wise old one?
Where I lay?
Thy words won’t change the facts.
This life is what one would always thinks that by doing things their way would make things work thus it only not work but cause the others around the subject to be in a hardship. They might know that but still they want to do it cause to them they had enough of those familiar habits arising. But have they consider the fact that if the world revolved around 1 person I wont have anything to say.
What am I doing? I should be at training now but because of some reason what am I doing now? Staying at home, sitting in front of my laptop, trying my best to write my report but I can’t get the mood because I got this heap of things I want to say but it can’t come out of my mouth but only. It could be trap in me, thus oppressive kid I have become over the years. The more oppressed I become the more unhappy I become inside, that almost every time I would try to do things crazy or joke around to musk up that feeling.
I could feel by the age of 25 if I suffer from depression I won’t be shocked about it. Cause looks at the world I am in. it’s nothing but black. I see no light, no hope, nothing.
I don’t see anyone to save me, help me cause for I have been gone to a faraway land a long time ago. This land is call the land of no return were only people who want to escape to would go physically I am here but mentally I am like dead. I am not different from a coma patient except I am still walking, breathing, doing things. What options I have? What choices I have?
I need a place to run and hide there for a while is there such a place?
-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:53 AM
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Friday, September 28, 2007
i did a test and it state clearly what i always believe i was and it's TRUE hahhaaa...................
too many things happen in such a short time. it's hard to recount the whole thing again
my life is such a dread. i am sooo tired due to all these simultaneous event happening plus some other important stuff that need to be done is still not done. but i am sometimes crazy hahah so the card is saying is slightly wrong but the restrainting part i agree haha
You are The Devil
Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession
The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.
Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
-MajorDuivel faced death at 7:14 PM
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Sunday, September 23, 2007
gesh.... I am so tired with everything. school just started. New zealand friends all went back to their country. we are still keeping in contact like sms, email, msn. I misses them . they missed us haha werid huh. this morning i got a text(Sms) from katey all the way from new zealand. secretly i am bookin the tickets tomorrow. i will call her up and book the tickets under my master recommendation and since kelly already know abt it(i chat with her msn) i told her not to tell katey abt it yet. hahaa... everyone misses each other and also the country. ok i better go now ( i managed to turn things around therefore i could book the air tickets tomorrow bleh i am such a genius)
-MajorDuivel faced death at 5:19 PM
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Friday, September 14, 2007
hahha OMg today i was told she was younger than me. but it turn out she is older than me BUT her height is shorter than me and i was asking to change to someone else to my master so it is more fair. even my instructor told him but he doesnt want to change.She is very friendly, even invited me over if i were to go new zealand to stay at her place.hahaa.... then she was telling me sports like skiing which what i told her i want to try SNOWboarding haha.. one problem when i visit new zealand i need to travel from place to place to visit all of them as they are of different branches hahaa.... it was kinda like the rehearsal and trial sparring was like a diaster haha... katey(whom is 23 and is attached haha) doesnt like to spar or never spar much that why and i had to like think of things to cheograph some part of the fight(only 2 part the rest is free ) it was fun haha... she kinds playful hahaa... we were playing around hahaa... there is another girl , i heard katey told me she is 19th but i didnt get a chance to talk to her. hopefully we get to talk haha.. they will stay here till next thursday i am so tired now ok ciao hahaha....(photos will come hahaha) DEvil in person SIGNING out!!!!!!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:09 AM
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
woohoo... my left feet is much better now hhaa i can jump. but still i cant strain it yet hahaa... tomorrow tomorrow is the trial day. i think by sat i am already fine. ok GTG NOW BYEBYE...today they arrive, tomorrow we tryout
-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:58 PM
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Monday, September 10, 2007
sigh~ it seems like the unavoidable would really be unavoidable. like how i dont want to injure myself i in the end still got injured. yesterday the full rehearsal the final rehearsal when i did my breaking kick(a jumping turning slamming kick) i landed on my left feet wrongly and i heard CRACKing sounds(mutiples).. and other ppl saw it would presume my legs went wobby and fell but no i partial sprained it haha.. I suffer the whole night. my feet is slightly better now but i am taking medicine for eating and apply two way to make it faster BY wednesday. (sob....) i never had such problem last time when it comes near anniversary. 1st reason is i cant get injured cause on sat what ever i am doing there is no one to replace me and i cant just drop out and on thursday the new zealand ppl are coming and i need to have a trial try out. HEHE... mybe photos will come *wink* hahaha... new ppl, new faces, new FRIENDs hahaa... ( new dudes haha and there is girls haha) i am kinda nervous and excited for thursday night hahaa.... today i found out my class for the new sem(e44d) but the good thing is wednesday my elective hahaha ... i am in the same class as suki,darren,li hao,diana,adeline, maybe Siti too OMG hahahhaa FUN now this is call the fun lesson for next sem hahaha... and it somemore reasoning through the ages ( congnitive) hahaha.....
-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:55 PM
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
this week seems like quite a nice week... OPPS i know it kinda to early to say that but monday i passed my Lifesaving 3 test. SO now is really left with CPR test and bronze medallion. and also even though i went tekong yesterday to vist the miltary camp for basic military training( i know all the guys would know this place well sooner or later or have been there) nothing much the only fun thing is the shooting for the gun hahaa.. but what make my day was the GPA results i saw last night hahaa..... wooooh my overall got pushed up hahaha and my this sem GPA is 3.5 haha... WOOOH.... 1st year sem 1= 3.3 sem 2= 3.6 year 2 sem 1= 3.5. haha i am like a stock broker hahaha.... okok good BUY BUY BUy hahaa,....... grades is what i fear cause it can kill alot of us. i finish reading fingersmith last night hahaa.... which result i am so tired now as i woke up early to eat with my folks.
-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:59 PM
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Sunday, September 02, 2007
*sway into the room*saveeeeee..... me HEHEHE okok i am not dying! just today i went to my training centre and waited for the physican to come and i ask him abt the left rib and my right knee cap this pain which started yesterday. shishu(the physician i call him that cause he is my master how do i say Same batch of student as him hehe something like that.) gave me medicine to apply and also some to eat to make it recover fast. and my kneecap he said i pull the veins and teaches me physiotherapy. i was told not to over exert my left rib haha... WHYYY.... WHYY must i get injured like now? tomorrow i got my lifesaving 3 test and yesterday i was practising for the last time i felt pain at the left rib. i injured the instructor that my ribs i injured it last week and told me he will inform the tester abt this. next sunday is full rehearsal and the week after that the saturday is theDAY of performance. SIGH! what the hell..........
-MajorDuivel faced death at 6:36 PM
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