Monday, July 31, 2006
ahem.. sorry i dont have time to update today!
just a radom shoutout here to my big brother!
thanks again big brother for your wonderful comment ... again i will say i am not wise for my age i am kinda childish and i have not recieved your email yet!!!!
oh i kinda missed chatting with you on msn!

ok byebye everyone will update if ihave the time in sch now ineed to let my bro use my laptop.
-MajorDuivel faced death at 9:15 PM

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Sunday, July 30, 2006
thanks nicholas for commenting on my blog! i appreciate that! :)

sigh~ ever wonder why must one take a long way to understand someone? or in another words befriend someone?
_____*start talking to myself*______
would u even doubt your friends?
would u even feel like giving it up as u tired?
would u even think it complicate your life?
would u let it destroy you life?
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sorry just some question i am asking myself!

i realised one thing every year! i always go into deeper thoughts but like i said to my big brother atreu cell i am not wise just i am still a kid who is still not mature. i really like this big brother tho he is really thoughtful and encouraging big brother i know. i never seen another friend who is like a big brother who really give ppl that kind of kindness and friendliness.
Even tho i dont chat with him much i hope he is doing well now and he is on a speedy recovery from his injury!

this actually goes to everyone,
i am not who u think i am! u will never really know me inside out unless i let u or open up myself. And dont think that i'm a person who you could easily Deceive. dont try to mess my mind up by even trying means u are giving yourself a chance to commit suicide.

i need to go now i cant type much now i will carry on soon i think when i feel like it! it nothing much about my life i am a person who is constantly busy that all u all would know!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:03 PM

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Friday, July 28, 2006
i just dont know why am i so energetic and all hyper like a kid today?
i think it FRIDAY woooo.... plus tonight, tomorrow i'm so busy in a sense but will be fun one.
tonight is my bro birthday celebration which he celebrated slightly earlier.
tomorrow even tho my morning is a waste of time by going to my sec sch and waste 1 hr+ there but in the afternoon hehe i will be with agatha and usha it so fun to meet up with them again if i dont meet up with usha now i think i will see her in 6 months time again. Sob~ she will be back in england for her studies. Agatha on the other hand is in singapore but is busy with her studies in UNI.

i woke up this morning with a sense of not wanting to get up as i am feeling so sleepy and lazy haha...
-MajorDuivel faced death at 8:47 AM

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006
hahah i got the title from a short clip i'm watching still not done loading yet?

i never feel so tired but with this sense of delight before!
u see i was in the same team as nicholas today everyone would void to be in his team.
For i was like ok i am ready to take this challenge with him in the team which it turn out u need to know how to talk to him and treat him that u could subdue him. i not saying that i have the ability to do that it just sometimes u need to give ppl a chance...!
why am i delight? it was first time i take full responsibility in pushing my entire team. I was kinda pushy today that i find myself too bossy! i was like u all do this now and get back at 12.45pm then for 15 mins we stop what we are doing and discuss then at 1 pm we do the PPT for the presentation and ok then it would be done.!
hehe for those in my team i am sorry if i was too pushy i had no choice kelly have been telling me nicely to keep in the time frame and give the work on time as the dateline today is 2.15pm and i completed everything before 2.15pm and everything uploaded.
i ask my team a question asking if i was too much for them! they say no i was not too pushy and suehley say i was a good leader.

sigh~ everyday i am so tired pushing but today was one hell of a pushing. Nicholas was not a problem i guess it too late for me to say now that if i was given a chance maybe i wont mind having nicholas in my team for certain modules. since i only have 3weeks plus left before we go into semester break and a change of class....

so long everyone and sweet tight me now gonna sleep!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 9:08 PM

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Dark Blue

i love this song this show one tree hill i never watch it but it goes well with this song
-MajorDuivel faced death at 8:04 PM

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Monday, July 24, 2006
hey my dear friends who read this event is by my friend and i am helping him in getting the responds so if u are interested. just contact me will do!

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This coming holidays, get ready to party and let your hair down!!! Time to really get to know each and everyone in this school... It can be that handsome dude or cute lady that has being catching your attention lately Or you just want to party.... Whatever your 'objective' is.... The time has come:) Hi everybody, this is DJparanoia from Soundworks Entertainment.... We are organising a disco party either at The Musicunderground or Live Impact .... Cost for each interested participant is $15 nett and includes 2 drinks. For more details, please kindly email me @ benedictst@hotmail.com or give me a ring @81332132 Look forward to your replies:)
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-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:13 PM

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
listen up! i am not a person to be push around! it doesnt mean that i dont say anything i wont bite ok! i didnt leave class today because what i ran home crying or anything it just ONE thing CONGRAts U MANAGE to make ME, PRISCILLA ,SUPER angry! i would personally CONGRAT U or U ALL!
I came HOME IS TO BE BENEFICAL TO THE CLASS I'M bad at controlling myself when i am super angry and since i was push to release my evilness. NOW IT NO LONGER NICE, happy, good person. JUST WATCH ME,pris, is not a person who FOrgive or forget! LIke i said u messed with the wrong person and like what yousof said before u will get endless trouble .....................

oh yes i lose faith in the phrase "i will support you!"
why? it just i feel this world u can only trust yourself and believe yourself no one else u only could support yourself no one else is reliable other then your family members and Best friend. why i say that? ppl who say i support u would be the first to back out when something happen and that always happen!

next thing is i wonder how many informer are there in this world! they tend to make things harder for everyone by not bothering abt their own business . BUt also i wonder if helping a friend or offering help is an offence then why would people teach others to help others when u see them struggling.. ironic... ONE THING I LOVE cHALLENGES so BRING IT ON!

oh yes one more thing when i decided to talk things out nicely i am seriously taking it the adult way not the childish way but if u cant act like an adult then i am so sorry there no room for discussion and explaination cause kids wont accept the truth and only live in their little world another thing is wake up will u ? reflect on yourself see what qualities and rights u have to go around acussing people of saying anything!
i admit u never go and say bad things abt ppl behind their back but could u admit that? i dont think so! now how many more weeks do i left in this shit hole place i think 5 week! some of them are quite ok tho the rest i am speechless!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:49 PM

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
sigh~~ am i dying?
i wondering that question myself not that i wishing i am dying!
it just i realised that recently before i end sch or finish sch i would be having a real bad headach.

i also realised that how bad my sch chair is that it was design to be nice but it really not that comfortable for long hours as u will get a nice backach after sitting on it over long period .

ok now i will type more i am tired and sleepy with a bad head. ciao byebye
-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:39 PM

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Willow & Tara - Fight the Good Fight

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:09 AM

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Monday, July 17, 2006
songs that is nice! hahah... zombie ROCKS!!

the cranberries- zombie
Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken.
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?
But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.
In your head, in your head they are fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are crying...
In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey.
What's in your head, In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, dou, dou, dou, dou, dou...
Another mother's breakin', Heart is taking over.
When the vi'lence causes silence,
We must be mistaken.
It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen.
In your head, in your head they're still fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are dying...
In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey.
What's in your head, In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey,
oh, oh, oh, Oh, oh, oh, oh,
hey, oh, ya, ya-a...


teenage life by Daz Sampson http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8X2UXhX7HxE for the song or the main video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56Ne6F_SWbs

Now hear this
"What did you learn at school today?"
That's what the teachers used to say
But they don't know Don't understand, do they
Why do they always give advice Saying
"Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long since they had a teenage life
"What did you learn at school today?"
That's what the teachers used to say
But they don't know Don't understand,
do they Why do they always give advice Saying
"Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long time since they had a teenage life
Dwelling on the past, from back when I was young
Thinking of my school days and trying to write this song
Classroom schemes and dreams
Man they couldn't save me
Cos my days were numbered
when I signed down on Avy Teenage kicks running out
what could we do I still show respect to my boys who made it through
And getting told off Mr T how my life would be
Then giving him a signal
So everyone could see Sunshine and shade
Those girls I'd serenade
Thinking of those sixth form chicks that misbehave
Hoping that those days would go on and on forever
Every day something new
Just friends running together
But suddenly school ends
Your teenage life gone
All your mates are growing up now
They're moving on
And now I'm looking back I'll tell you what I know
Do you listen to your teacher?
No I don't think so
"What did you learn at school today?"
That's what the teachers used to say
But they don't know Don't understand Do they
Why do they always give advice Saying
"Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long time since they had a teenage life
Now if you treat the kids fine,
together they will shine
Ooh ooh ooh shine
And if you give the kids time,
they won't do the crime Won't do the crime
Now my bad old ways
Were during my school days
Messing on those grade A's
My life is just a haze
I'm going through the struggle
Five ten and kicking back
So I could lock my flow
Lace it up now on the track
Oh yeh I felt the pain
Whilst chasing all the fame
I'm being told I'm nothing
Just a player in the game
But now I walk tall Stand proud for you to see
I'm driving these fast cars It's five stars for me
"What did you learn at school today?"
That's what the teachers used to say
But they don't know Don't understand, do they?
Why do they always give advice Saying
"Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long since they had a teenage life
-MajorDuivel faced death at 6:21 PM

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Saturday, July 15, 2006
WHAT a day! after a long week of sch it nice to be at home on saturday doing nothing!!! hehe it feels so good not to do PBL on weekends BUT IT SICK doing it everyday and always driving to complete the project by 3th meeting!!! Yawn~~ going to watch CSI now so ciao ciao!!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:21 PM

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Wednesday, July 12, 2006
i am really giving up on most stuff! i am tired and sick of all those crap! i'm not sure who is in the right or wrong. and i am not taking sides or anything . If i could i would also give up all my friendship if i need to .what for holding on to something that doesnt move on but rather stay stagnant at the same point? there is no point as everything i said is like always going back to the point of origin. ARH i am all werid again! i have not been myself again....

i think i need more time to think through what i am planning of doing as i know this is not hard for me to do it easy for me.
for now i need to be left alone, i am gonna not answer anyone calls from today onwards my noble phone would be switch off till i find it deem to switch it on again!

i am all crap right now i think i am soooo drowsy again! it werid taking the medication for the rash which supposed to knock me off my feet last night didnt really take effect till this morning i think as i'm like super drowsy now in school! i just talk to my "wife" vernice about stuff!

How can i trust when i am not given the truth?
how can i pretend that what truth that were told to me was real but rather i know it a lie?
like what vernice said this is like an equation
lying = lost of trust and honesty

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8sF_jZqz3Q

for now i should shut up, go one corner and think thru everything and oh yes the link is for my reference for willow and tara with the song zombie by the cranberries! f@@@ world!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 2:24 PM

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Monday, July 10, 2006
ok many ppl in sch today didnt went to sch but I Am not one of those in the soccer fever who said that they are sick! i was really sick! i had this rash on my knee cap which at first it was like all dry up(thanks to the injured from the fall with all those medicated plaster) then it was itchy i scratch it and it kinda tear without me knowing and for 1 week i was in pain then it start recovering and the non-stop itch start coming.
which on sat it started to spread to my arm had it and it was itchy and yesterday was my back! it was a killer i was like scratching like mad! after shower my knee i scratch the surrounding area of the injured part which kinda went all RED and bleeding u must have known how itchy it was for me to apply so much force that it bleed!

i got the injection from my doc to ease the itch and she told me it a strong doze which may cause drowsiness. haha less then 5 mins or close to 1 min i was like all stony . yes i got the jab at 9+am and i was drowsy till 6pm or later. It really strong huh!

ok me gtg now byebye
-MajorDuivel faced death at 5:47 PM

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Friday, July 07, 2006
i think i found out what is the problem i am overloaded and burnt out from everything! by overloaded i mean there are too many things in my mind like my friends problems and stuff everything is in my head i am not letting things out like keeping everything in a box. burnt out haha can u believe it i sleep everyday at around 8 pm and wake up at 7.10am but i still feel so tired.

let see do i see the cloud in my mind clearing? I THINK so! i am not sure is it because the weekend is coming or i let somethings out of the box? i think i am like a vaults filled with stuff but soon things will get filled up and the box cant take in anymore..
ok now i am going stop here back to studies!
-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:47 AM

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
i been really moody these few days hahha ya right i am well known for my moodness! what the heck right!
but this mood i am having is really bad that i wont even talk to anyone and give u a face which is moody. My mom , my brother and aisha had been asking me the whole of last night what happen they thought that something happen in school which in fact it slightly got to do with my school but like i say i wont say it here... one reason is i have friend in my class which might be reading this post! and the reason is kinda personal. sorry guys i wont be writing here!

and i am sorry to my friends who had been talking to me but i kinda is a grumpy, moody person. siighhhh i ammmmmm losing my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHHHHHH.......

i wonder where is BIG BROTHER david where have u been? ???/

*lost is like falling into an abyss which u would never climb out.
it just like losing yourself without regaining it the longer u are in that pit the harder it is for u to get out and find yourself!*
-MajorDuivel faced death at 9:10 AM

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