Death, is only the beginning...

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

*bang my head*
OMG it was ok yesterday
and now The pain is back... Shit what is wrong with my left rib

NPG...... Welcome... hahahaa
i am not upset anymore just the pain u know killing me hhaa.. as least now is not so bad as sunday but still just now i realised i cant LAUGH too too hard it would sting.

mummy& daddy told me to rub it or do some movement to it to let the blood flow. my dad was in fear that it have cracks or broken haha... i know it didnt so ya... kinda like bruising on the inside with no physical trace.*this sucks*

it like every injury i learn something new, somethings to take note of in the future haha... like spot your own mistake in your own stunts

-MajorDuivel faced death at 4:39 PM

Monday, August 27, 2007

heya~!
yesterday i did mention i got a painful left rib. it's bad u know i cant sleep but lucky today it is slightly better now. weridly no bruises.
i could understand those ppl who broke their ribs or crack feels . the anwer is crap.
1) you cant laugh
2) you have difficulties sleeping
3)you can get off your bed or chair without feeling the pain.

i dont know recently i am pushing internet away as i am sick and tired of always coming online. i didnt surf the net for 2 days. i wonder has our life really been taken over by internet itself or just nowadays there is nothing for us to do then to always waste time online?
well i also know that there is some stuff we cant see or read in our country the beautiful internet has it all. (these 2 days i been reading a book)

i am very sick of everything. slightly is because everything is so routine. Sleep, wake up,eat,go school(on the internet),go home(on the internet) then sleep again. like there is nothing new to spice up our lives than tv and internet?

sometimes it get so dull that i wonder do i have friends cause i am always a loner.
i know if this goes out i am dead there would be ppl killing me for thinking that way.
when i go out sometimes i'm(mentally) not with the group and into my own world thinking.
when i want to go out i would have problems such as who do i call along?, where do we go?, what should we do?
maybe i lock myself up too much,too much that i am such a oppressive person.
the only best pal i have is my dog and my cds.
recently i am listening to the corrs again which mean trouble for me. cause i would listen to them when i am not in the mood. bond is when i need to relax haha..

i dun feel like writing anymore so ciao

-MajorDuivel faced death at 4:31 PM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

the start of the semester break i dont know is it the start of relaxation or the start of hell after another.

i could practically Floor the plan for my 3 weeks out clearly. (i could give u my own plan for the 3 weeks out clearly like a blueprint)
*breathes out*
so many things that need to be complete in 3 weeks and yet so little time for myself. other than a 3 weeks that i cant really predict wat is coming but i know i have to keep it empty of all activities which i, myself know it's unavoidable and once that event is over it's straight start of school term again. *frown*

i know most of my time i would be at home. but thinking of the uncomplete work that i need to do rather make me scared. cos i fear myself who is the best procastinator ever on earth.

on top of that haha My day today is Good, rather good mood.
yeah *dance abt* no little girl clingy today haha.. i could teach my other students faster and better.
but that is one matter, during my rehearsal the whole mass fighting which was the idea or the routine came up by my brother,i and jun wei(who gave suggestions to improve) so ya it's like you do your own design of the stuff and u DO it yourself non-stop like fanciful attacking each other and how to counter in my part today. it happen like this i know if i were to not be careful due to our HIgh LEVEL stunts i could either injured my brother or myself and it did happen today cause i didnt roll and throw my bro off me like i always did and it happen his body somehow crash into my left ribcage and it hurt but i have to ignore the pain and carry on the whole routine as there is no error for delay. ( i know my brother did feel anything but i did it was very VERY PAINFUl)
during the second run we were tired but still i did the same mistake and this time it was not so bad the pain. then after 30 mins(in 30 mins i did lots of stuff) i was laughing at something and i notice the sudden pain and up till now i cant laugh TOO hard or move abt too much. (LUCKY i didnt break anything cause the performance is in 2 weeks time and i got lots of duties that day)

i know i would be doing the opening act. possible a free-sparring if there is a NEw zealand girl( which is what i am not pinning for but i have train myself abit in the 30 mins haha cause i know MY life is SO unpredictable as i have to always do last min stuff like GEt on the stage in full gear and FIght hahah.. )

-MajorDuivel faced death at 9:32 PM

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Why would people always be wearing multiple masks, it’s just like the skin which is the first layer protecting what is inside the core which in this sense is the bone. Layer by layer it would be above the core.

Having multiple layers would not only protect the person innermost weakest part of the soul. Having such layers would have it benefits and disadvantages. Benefits are that unwanted intruders would never get to find the core of the person and completely destroy that person emotionally. The bad thing is because of having such a society we have nowadays it hard to trust anyone thus it became a barrier. where the person have to reduce certain degree of "the layers" for people to understand them slightly. This is how complex one would get.
Like even knowing people for 4 years and longer, the layer/ mask would never reduce to the bare-naked core of the inner soul as everyone would need to leave some free space or withhold part of themselves only they , themselves would know.

The most complex thing about them is that sometimes they would portray different side of themselves and not everyone have seen all the sides of this person .And sometimes even the person, themselves won’t even understand themselves well enough and how could one say they understand the other completely Inside out?
i have to admit there is people who is totally different from what was said so far
oh my how complex could a person be?

Anyway that is just a random thing.

-MajorDuivel faced death at 6:39 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007

hello ha.... first thing is thanks alexis for the stuff u pass to me! hahah now i got SPIderlilies dvd haha WOOOT !! with special features haha... and also other stuff.
*singing* ISABELLE ............ and Also for the movie: perfume a story of a murderer YEah hahaaa..............

i slept for about 12hrs omg today and still felt tired! gesh something is wrong with me.

i got a book called fingersmith by sarah waters even though i had watch the movie before and i still got it i have alot of interest in the book if i had the book earlier i would definately read it first before watching the movie.

Ok i shall go now...............

-MajorDuivel faced death at 9:35 PM

Saturday, August 04, 2007

yawn~~!

yesterday was not so bad in school we were doing a mini project which is hands on work which some of my classmates managed to finish it. but this project is spread throughout 3 weeks PCB lessons.

my right palm is hurting from the stupid cutter.!

i was supposed to meet usha and agatha yesterday but due to my busy schedule i forget to remind usha and she herself totally forget abt the whole meeting we were supposed to have and when i was at Plaza singapura i cant help but laugh at how forgetful usha has become now i wonder what have studying medicine in england done to her?
agatha was working at Plaza singapura i just told her we shall postpone the whole thing.

the funny thing is i am not angry! cause i understand usha's forgetfulness now!
and also i feel quite relieve cause at least i could go home and study more even tho i also wanted to meet up with them.

i study up till 12am. then woke up early again today at 8am to study! i know my body is tired and it's not willing to hear my command anymore but what could i do it's the final lap for this semester it's a do or break thing for my grades.

the worst thing is starting your morning doing calculus haha laplace transform,inverse laplace, final and intital and also fourier series .

ok gotta leave now to carry on study!

-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:12 AM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

ok a quick update cause i need to do other stuff and stufy for the final tests.
i just got photoshop on monday from jamie! and yesterday one of my classmates hehe i didnt know he is kinda expert in it and he taught me which i finally created my first banner haha...

yesterday was also the official launching of my school in it's new campus haha i study there for almost a year at the new campus and finally it announce it grand opening. PM lee was there and there was this J.U.M.P party (jammers united music party) in my school till 11pm.

i am sleepy and tired i better ciao now and hurry finish everything and study! :)

CALCULUS IS KILLING ME!!!!! GESH i forget I NEED TO STUDY IS CALCULUS BLEUH!

-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:47 PM