Death, is only the beginning...

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

The world is changing,
The time is spinning,
But life is not changing!

Gosh… life is as crazy as it could reach. This madness never stops and I start to feel that the world is always intact but the people in it are always not intact. Or should I go, OH the world is collapsing! But true enough only the world you are in, sole only you is collapsing on yourself. Are you able to deal with it? That is a question you have to solve yourself.

Everything is such unknown.
Ha... By reading you could have know I am stressed up or trouble.
True enough, would the real me Please stand up?
I guess the real self is not appearing yet.

I have such a feeling the EMO mood is back in the year (this long lost friend is back again every year)

Set aside this EMO mood.

I was given a little eagle soft toy by this kid, little girl, on Sunday she gave it to me In a way pretending that she doesn’t want it and asking me if I want it cause she didn’t like It. But to say in my opinion this eagle is Cute. Shh.. Don’t breathe a word to that kid. She is that cling kid. I was rather amazed by the way she ask and when I gave her my replied it was for her to decide if she wants to give it to me. I guess that replied for her to decide made her rather happy. Of course when I left training I thank her again this time again I think she is happy.(she gave me an eagle and gave my other guy friend a cricket hehe..)
I am starting to worry cause she didn’t pass her previous grading before this recent grading she had been stuck with me as her inst for 6mths now she is still in my control. Sigh ~ when chief instructor ask her: “DO you want to fail again?” she replied: “I wont mind failing again!” I was laughing so was my instructor. THIS Scares me… endless nightmares hahaa…………. Of a clingy kid.

Ok why am I talking about this eagle?
Well I didn’t place it in my room I place it on my study desk and I really like it hahaa…
I have been playing with it when I am bored and on my laptop. (I will spare you the details)
NPG if u are reading this yes I agree with u it was sweet for her to give me the toy. But no way it gonna be another SL live in action! Just a reminder… it will never happen. Ok I will try to take a photo of that kid. Maybe just her only without me! We will see first.

thanks to clara's bloggie haha not so bad i amnot so bitchy at all.
37% is not bad

You Are 37% Bitchy

You're a pretty sweet person, and you're definitely not prone to bitchy outbursts.Sometimes, though, you can't help thinking mean thoughts about people. But at least you don't act on them!

How Bitchy Are You?

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:28 PM

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

this songs FIts my Mood : (no time to blog current ya this is the update)

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missedAnd don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memoryLeave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

*linkin park - leave out all the rest*

-MajorDuivel faced death at 8:38 PM

Saturday, October 06, 2007

gesh! i am so dead. i am offically pronounced death *time of death= 10.36pm on oct 26th 2007*

migraine is kicking in ARH that why i feel so uncomfortable today.

being human? and is a human?

what is the difference?

is there difference?

or is it just the same where both are just a monotone robots that just do what they are told to. or just things that is being so similar to each other?

currently i cant think so i cant say what my point of view is so later ppl i will write what i feel.

SEEE EYA

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:44 PM