Death, is only the beginning...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

After 4 days of painting, gosh my body seriously needed some rest. Especially my right knee, due to the constant standing I felt it was aching so badly after painting each day. That after certain hours of constant standing I had no choice but to sit back down to do what I need to do as to rest my knee.

I was being reprimanded by my Shifu as the day I went out shopping with V I had a very bad pain in my knee and I never brought my knee guard out with me. And he told me I have to bring it out with me everywhere I go. Plus I need to constantly rest my knee by sitting down. Hm.. suddenly I feel so old with an injury like that, but I can’t be a hero anymore and just walk non-stop without feeling a pain in my knee.
Now my toe is in pain, here is the serious matter I didn’t knock into anything but I am like being punish for eating something which I shouldn’t. Now I know I seriously can’t eat it anymore, I won’t do it again for real I dun want to feel the pain anymore. TAKE IT AWAY NOWWWW…..

Today I felt the tremors from the earthquake while playing yulgang and I was first asking myself why is my body moving? Then I realized it was the same feeling I had when I first felt earthquake tremors and it was quite bad because I am staying at the upper levels or rather the Highest in this building. It was shaking so badly for me. That even mikey was starting to bark non-stop.

Jessie *smile at* it was great to see you, Looking even great in your long hair now hahaa… just joking hahaa… anyway you got a nice exam t-shirt to wear for your final’s. that brand seems rather cool, I might check it out soon. Oh yes, when you are free maybe we all can arrange and outing. Of course with siti,suki,may,ez and everyone we know , I bet it would be fun.

Ciara, Yo gurl haha I link your photolog I hope u don’t mind hahaha… I want to read more corny stuff haha…

For the next few days starting from Friday, I would be out of my home. Haha Chalet here I come, since it is mag’s birthday chalet I would have to attend. It is like a compulsory thingy. Haha…. I will bring so much ice mag you dun need to buy any.
plus kt will be in singapore on Sunday yeaaaaahh... more drinking and drinking

I am praying for the day which I feel totally relax again to come hahha..

major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 10:40 PM

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I was so tired, my muscles all are screaming in pain.
After training it felt kinda good. But the sad part is my knee is still not 100% yet. *sulk*

I was getting all comfy in my bathroom, I sat in the bath tub to ease my feet a bit and letting the warm water from the shower tap relax my tense muscle from all the previous aches I obtained yesterday from painting. (One day I will have a bubble bath in that bathtub, so far I never soak in it yet. I only sat in it that all)

While being so relax suddenly it hit me again. This is what hit me:

Isn’t it funny how people say they will carve their own future?
Others will say they will pave their own path, then what they want to use is fine. For me I want it to be different, maybe I say I want to pave my path using gold and have myself walking in a monotone colour which may seems nice to you but to me it is boring. I want my path to be something colorful not having rainbow colors splashing everywhere. Maybe something like this, when I started out I would use red path and follow what I believe till the end and when I think that is the end of my red path, I will start out with another color maybe yellow next. And this will go on and on.

Then my mind sways away back to something I discuss with my cognitive teacher before, trying to answer my previous random thought.

Is it wrong to have something different from others?
Who in this world has the right to say this is right and that is wrong?
Or vice versa, I don’t think anyone could. To me certain thing could be right and to other it is wrong. It is all the upbringing or societies we are brought up in, that change all our thoughts, belief and norms.
and then if no one in this world has the right to say what is right and what is wrong, then how is it possible for anyone to judge others. What rights has been given to anyone to judge then?

Suddenly in me I started to think of how I would look at a person as a question I pose to myself. First that came to my mind is to look for the persons inner beauty but if I were to overwhelm by that Inner beauty and all the good points of that person, I would be so clouded to see the bad points and not so beauty of the person. Thus now tell me how should we look at others, this is like a coin; it has two sides to it. And honestly people are the worst of all, let me correct that, humans are the worst of all. They created this and that and that and that. Plus they have more than 2 sides unlike the coin.

When people started asking fundamental questions, no direct answers could be found anywhere. Thus everyone will turned to beliefs, religious and culture. Now let’s think properly in this (I am not saying against religious or anything, no offences I am a believer in one religion too) if you cant find an answer, you tend to turn to others who could provide you a fulfilling answer.

Now, let me ask you one question. What do you presume will happen to you after your dead? Is there life after death? I seriously don’t have the answers, I can’t give you my answers I am not going to give you answers I know from prior knowledge (religious, folktales, etc).
if we were to set that aside, empty our prior knowledge, would it be that we just die and a magical *poof* we are gone, nothing else is left.

From what I written so far, did you notice one thing. Everything is said and being done by humans. There are so many things we follow without questioning what is being fed to us, as we are all willing to accept what is given than to twitch our brains to even think through what was being told for once.

Just like in the morning I ask my mom a question.
“Mom, why do you know it is the ice cream man when he rings the bell?”
my mom’s replied “naturally as long you hear the bell ringing it is the ice cream man in the kampung.”
me: “ then how does the nut seller sells his assorted nuts? “
mom : “he shout ‘kacang puteh’ “
me: *speechless* “but how in the first place anyone know that an ice-cream man ring his bells to just sell ice cream. Who started this? And why can’t it be something else?”

Why can’t be a drink stall vendor be the one selling drink ringing a bell? Not only the ice-cream man get special treatment where every generation down the road will know that familiar sounding bell is from the ice-cream man. Seriously, it is kind of weird to acknowledge something which I don’t even know how did it started. My mom thought that it was a way to attract customers but honestly do you think I agree with it fully.

*chuckle* yes I thought through all those in my relax shower. Except the icecream man case which was what I heard this morning the loud, chimes coming from downstairs.

Ps: finally something not about my own daily lifestyle hahah.. V --- -> I got a tagboard there do leave messages

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:36 AM

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Gosh... I am so tired now.
I have been painting the house with my mom the whole day.(only the walk in balcony)
*feel burning stares directed at me* OK I confessed not really the whole day but half my day was gone helping my mom.

Mom gotten up early and went on her morning routine. She didn’t want to wake me up, so she just told me she was going to get breakfast first and come back to work on the house first. So when I finally woke up; due to the constant barking of mikey, I woke up and scolded him for being irritating.
My plans were to eat, run an errand and come back home to help paint the house. But my mom keep holding me back to help her move this and that, so basically I was hold back to do those little things I won’t complain. When I was finally ready it was around 11+am or 12pm.Can’t remember though, so I went for my late breakfast and while I was crossing the basketball court my mind was running a drift on yesterday’s outing.

As I was already on the pavement to the coffee shop the first thing I notice is that, the coffee shop was quite filled with people and as I walk closer I notice a group of familiar looking people. The first thing that comes to my mind, “wait the group of people looks like jessie’s colleagues+friend” so as I gotten closer I was like, guess I was right and that person in red could be jess (I was still walking so I can’t confirm the person since She was facing the front). But anyway I was correct about that first guess plus I never seen her at that coffee shop having her lunch before. (I presume lunch since I’m having breakfast. I won’t know what everyone is having breakfast/lunch/brunch hahaha)
haha after my meal I quickly,rush off to my errand running, then hurry back to help my mom.

Gosh have more painting to do tomorrow :) haha... So I won’t be online till maybe at night. Wait I won’t be online tomorrow at all as I have training at evening.
Yesterday when I was out I guess my knee was hurting so badly that I was like limping and even when I was back home it was still hurting so badly that I started to do my self-treatment again. (tsk tsk.. if my shifu find out he might kill me as I was slacking off since I didn’t do my maintenance of my knee cap) but seriously I guess it was the rheumatism that was killing me last night.

And after talking to my mom, I am gonna get the same thing I got for mag’s birthday present ahaha… YEAHHH.…. Approval had been approved.

HEHE… but I will get it later after the birthday; because I don’t want to spoil the fun OF this mystery (what are they getting for me?) Mag might be hoping it is not a set of tool kits consisting of shackles, handcuffs... Etc. How about inflatable dolls? I guess the number one on her No-No list is Lingerie, since we always tease her we will buy her a SEXY full set for her birthday yet we have not yet done so… hehe… Mag mag mag you are so under our scheming hands. *evil laughter* EVEN IF I were to say what I get for you, you also won’t know hahahaa… because u don’t read this blog. YET I STILL READ YOUR BLOGs now and then. *pout*

*i have a feeling lot of sentance structure is all over the place, cant be bothered now to edit*

PS: V.. i was grinning like crazy on my walk to my errand because all those funny things keep popping into my mind "GReen LAND" hahahaa...

MISCHIEF Major duivel (just like the color i wore today)

-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:59 PM

Woah… the date today was Ultimately SUCCESSFUL. Hahaha.. (Very long update)
anyway we got what we need, and I would say it was a rather fun day. I had so much fun that I almost forget who I was.

First I had a nice brunch at taka’s Omu rice. It was my first time eating there so yes, it was a filling meal. Vanessa accompanied me while I was eating, even though I gave her a bit of my meat patty for her to try. So we were thirsty, and I was still a bit hungry (greed has taken over when I saw takopachi) so I told her let’s get a drink first in cold storage then get to that vendor.

So I seriously think cold storage is the same with its super new looks, due to the revamp and seriously we can’t find the drinks of our choice thus we left. SO after I got my takopachi, which I keep telling v that seriously that guy working in that store was ~~staring~~ checking her out ever since we walk pass that mini booth. (I notice it when we first walk pass as it was so obvious he was Checking her out) but she shut me up by asking me to stop teasing her. Ok... So after I was done buying my bacon and cheese, v tucked me and said: “wanna try mochi” while stopping me in my tracks and pointing to beard papa. I was like I am ok with anything.
So we choose the flavours and I was shocked not knowing it is $2 per Mochi(thinking it comes in a pair), we took pischato and raspberry white chocolate. Both were really great except the raspberry one was like a stone when we tried(over freezing it but I told v because it is not popular so no one buys it but she say Expired hahahaha) . LOl V didn’t believe me till it was her turn to eat the other half hahaha… and I started teasing V again as usual. (I can’t remember how many times did she told me to “STOP It” the entire day hahaa… )
Ok when we found a place to sit I told V that if we are still hungry we can go to the mid-autumn festival event and try all the tester. She burst out laughing and joins in saying that if we walk one round and try everything we would be so full that we had settle our dinner.

OMG I am in LOVE ppl…… WITH THE PRESENT WE BOUGHT FOR MAG… OMG how how…. Lucky it is now with V or else I might not turn it in. *pout* darn why do I have to always give people the presents that I am in love with? Sorry people I can’t mention now what I bought for mag… But I tell you the brand of this gift is very eye catchy hahahaa… that when I stroll at ion orchard, I don’t feel any where poorer hahaha…. Kidding kidding…

HEY to those appreciator of liquor out there, I found a real cool shop call VOM FASS at ion orchard level 4, the sales girl is very very nice and friendly. And I have to tell you it is like a shop where it sells, brandy, whiskey, liquors & spirits and also Vinegar and oils. When you step into the shop you will face bottles and bottles of colorful liquids (which I can’t help thinking why the bottle looks like cauldrons in a very modern way) and I thought I walk into a scented shop which sells perfume or oil stuff. And when she started introducing the products I was shocked to the core, and to top it off U get to test it (FOC).

The policy of the shop is that you can buy a bottle of your choice (the price varies with the design you choose cheapest is $1.80 [I love that bottle but it is sold out] ) and the ml.(100ml,200ml etc) and you pick which type of product you want and they will fill it up in your bottle. And the price also varies for the different products and they all charged per 100ml.(but I guess u cant have a 200ml bottle saying I want 100ml only that kind of thing I am not sure how it work if that were to happen. Will check it out next time when I am there) The bottles are PREETYYYY…. I AM PLANNING TO GET IT NEXT month. Ok back to the introduction of this. So after buying your product and you finish it, wash it, then bring it back to that shop and buy your refill again(this time u dun need to buy a bottle anymore ;) ) I like the concept of this.
I tested Vanilla Dream which is GOOD, then Plum brandy (i didnt like it) lastly , Strawberry limes it tasted ok just somehow i feel it is abit sweet. V love the strawberry limes and vanilla dream. (note: strawberry limes is a hot seller) hehee... my new place to find pleasure suddenly. After leaving that shop both of us keep thinking of that shop and the taste of what we just had and it was just like a drop of it and we are attracted to it. (i told v every month we can just go back there to get another flavour hahaa)

oh yes,close to this shop there is a supermarket call 360 and trust me the items inside are SOOOO... different from wat u see from an average supermarket.( next time i have a party i know where to buy different types of potato chips)
We stop by havaianas and I got my flip flop haha… finally my own H-flip flop. So yup, a last stop in shopping was for cheri’s birthday present.
After that we chill out in a shop near the food court in ion orchard. (I can’t remember the name of that shop) I was suppose to go to the hospital but after chilling out for awhile I told v why not have dinner together since I am not in a hurry( which in the first place I felt bad as V wanted to eat and after I told her I won’t be having dinner she complete didn’t want to eat there and will head back to woodlands to grab something later, even though I forced her to carry on with her plans she didn’t want to.)

After doing a heart to heart chit chat with V to tell her some things that is on my mind, I was getting irritated and a bit pissed by what I shared with her. I was starting to be hungry, which I joked with her that how a angry person get hungry fast. So she asked me if I was for real having dinner and I said yes. So we left that café and went around the food court checking out the pricing and I was very shock a bowl of minced meat noodles is $5. *Faint* then V saw the price and I called out to her “are you kidding me? $5 for a stupid bowl of noodles?” while she said: “pris, I think we eat elsewhere, here very expensive”. I scanned all the price tag to the foodcourt and it was really expensive.

I had to bring miss V back to takashimaya since she already mention is that a MOS burger in Ion which I told her I don’t think there is one. And I have to seriously say this girl Doesn’t have a single sense of direction which I have to drag her around the place. I will laugh at her when she say “are you sure this is the right way to taka?” and I will just laugh and say “just follow me”. Then suddenly I saw a Japanese guy who wore a real stylish outfit and I left v walking infront of me while I happen to stare at his outer coat. I find it funny as I keep looking at it to confirm what I saw, I saw him having a coat like a BATHRobe hahaha… V called out to me to snap me out of the mode and I laugh and told her “ that guy is in his bathrobe” she hold on to me while I walk on Afraid that she might get lost haha… (Me) “I bet that was his bath robe 10 years ago, the length of it is shorter than the standard bathrobe and it really looks like a bathrobe”. I end up having a good laugh with her.

There are more stuff actually but I don’t want to Type everything out.. I spent the entire afternoon and evening with V so there is a lot of things going on like jokes and laughers going around.

Now I really can’t wait for the chalet. IT would be a blast. Haha… V beware hahahaa…
Mag I hope u don’t read this as we never buy your present. LOL…. I guess you wont even know as you don’t read my blog. Tsk tsk disappointed.

Happy&Tired,
Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 1:35 AM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

If this world would just stop spinning for even just a while I guess I could just take a break walk around and do things I want and relax myself for once. I’m getting tired of pretending that slacking around is kind of fun and relaxing. When I have all this free time I am starting to ask myself some fundamental questions which I hope, it will just stop popping in my head.
I was also wondering if there is a time when I really need to leap off a cliff (not like bungee because it was what I wanted to try at least 1 , you live to die once only so why not try everything if you can hehe my ideology hahaha) would I do it? Would I just jump off and plunge into something I don’t know? Hm… this is like your future as you never know what is ahead of you. Thus would you just dive into something first then re-evaluate it later?
So… now I am so mentally tired. There are things that were built up since young and I had enough of it.

Every corner I turn is like walking back to the original spot,
walking in this pointless, meaningless maze is killing me horribly.
So you think I need to go holiday?
At least run away from the reality for a short period of time.

I’m still wondering how hard it is for one to understand another.
And that answer to this question is quite hard. And it is even hard to get the other person to quietly listen to you and not cut in even before you finish. Then I wonder where has the mutual respect of your own “air time” to speak gone too. I blurted out a statement once, which I even said that I didn’t mean it in any other way just like a statement, with no personal attack on that particular person. And this person being all close minded started Jumping around the place saying I was insulting him/her directly. I was very pissed off as even me being so careful of my words and tone was being mistaken so tell me How to make a coconut understand what u are trying to say. (for those who are wondering what did I say it was this “I guess this topic is going to be a every dinner topic” honestly do anyone see any needles or P.A to this?)
That is why I rather keep quiet and not say anything,
once I was told not to say anything abt my friends and etc around me to them as they have no particular interest. The other day I was just saying “what should I get for my friend, cheri” and I didn’t ask for any answers, soon after that 2 days later I told that person I know what I am going to get. And something happen and this person went “You don’t have to keep nagging at me what u are going to get for your friend, that is none of my business “ Do you know how pissed off I was?
I was very pissed off that I shut up immediately and not speak of another word. Inside my heart I was cursing like no other and also reminding myself that is why I hate to strike a conversation with that particular person. And worst of all, this person makes me so mentally drained that I have to think 10 times before saying anything. I sometimes have to even think on what I am going to say as it may be nothing but to that person it could mean HELL a lot. It is always narrow mindedness that will kill this world. Do you know how many times I would like to tell that person, GROW UP AND don’t always think you are right and correct about everything around you. (this person can’t grow up any more since he/she is quite grown up) another bad thing is this person is not Keen in listening to other people Point of view. That why I said it is very hard for me to converse with this person, I feel so mentally drain because I have to plan what to say even in a place where my defences are down.

do this person really understand what I am thinking?
do this person really know why certain things said were meant of the own good of the other party so that he/she wouldn’t be left out?

Hm so much questions inside my head.

Ok let’s change the air around here *take air freshener out*

Recently whenever I look at my finger I feel so empty as the ring I got from Malaysia, well I broke it by dropping it on the floor hahaha… so it was split cleanly into two. It is like some kind of stone(black agate) hahaha.
Today, weeh I would be going out today to get some stuff, the most impt agenda of this trip is to buy birthday presents. We already know what to get for them. So I would be so broke by end of this month, 2 birthdays back to back to each other. The next thing I am going town is to look for a hard casing for my guitar. I want it to be fully secured and rest well(hehe… She needs to be in a very comfortable environment). Now I am having doubts like Should I buy a havianas flip flop? VERY very tempted to get one though, next week is the chalet haha what I smell is fun, fun and more fun. I am still thinking how to escape from the party on Friday, I cant let mag down since she was the one whom book all of us down. Lol… headache headache…

MD

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:48 PM

Monday, September 07, 2009

Hm…

Life is such a muddle.

I am so zombie like now.

I realized that recently I having sleeping problems again. I find it awfully hard to sleep and it is as if I am fully awake. Or maybe my brain was not resting and was running after a train and somehow my body is resting thus making me very restless in the day time. Its like at night you know you are tired but you just cant sleep. Sigh it is happening again, I find a way to go to sleep again at night haha…

If u notice I had changed my music playlist and put in some of the latest songs which I like. I hope u guys like it. My friends would be coming over from New Zealand soon. Haha can’t wait to party with them, I guess next month would be a fun one for me; Friend’s Birthday chalet back to back with my friends visiting from abroad. Lol.. Soon it is time to upgrade my internet plan and get my integrated wireless modem which I am dying without having wireless in the house

MD

-MajorDuivel faced death at 4:18 PM