In Death I See Life
In Life I See Death
The Sweet Relief That I Long
The Hush Of Whispering wings
Have come to Take Me
Away, away

So which is more painful?
Death or Life?
Which would you choose?
For me there isnt any difference
For it has taken me
Away, away

Me
They call me Major DUIVEL
I have lived for 26 years
My Favourite Thing Is my watch
What i want most is lots of peaceful time
I want to be remembered by no one
I dote my DoG the most
I love my cd's the most
I love drinking and eating the most
I hate hypocrites
I dislike people who make me paranoid
I Hate it when PPL LIE
I hate it when PPl make use of me


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a new cellphone
Nikon DSLR D90 /DSLR
Ipod/Iphone
external HDD
a new watch
a backpack or messenger bag
EUROPE TOUR
SIM 3
havaianas flip flop
a ticket to escape anyway where i want for 10 days
A holiday trip with my friends
A ************ (Haha.. not gonna tell ;P)
something else

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Seri
jarain
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Saturday, March 30, 2013
My beloved blog, it’s been awhile.


You are still here means I’m still breathing.
These recent months have been bleak. Everything is in a mess that I can’t tell what reality is and what reality isn’t anymore. I would say my life is like a joke now… everything I knew or thought I knew wasn’t the truth. I didn’t see myself out side of the picture.

I had been blinded to see, to know that what I have done was actually, in fact harming myself.

 I see that now clearly, I’m going to rectify the issue. And then see how it goes, I did say some hurtful stuff but I was being selfish as I had to do this for my own well being. I had a understanding and kind heart but something like that I have to think for myself. As being kind doesn’t really give u a good return, today I realized how much happier I was 3 years ago. I was so happy, I called a friend up and chit chat, she save me again… as always my FYP team mate always safe me from myself.

 I promised someone I wont think of the bad things of myself. But how can I not….

I shall reflect now on myself and try to change myself back to what I was.

 I shant let what happen recently change me.

I … wish to be alone for now, to think, to be calm, to talk to my emo self at the same time. Talk to the real me.

Im tire d, sleepy and I need to rest.

im going to change the habit.

I dun care what others thinks about me when they don’t personally knows me. I may seem arrogant, snobbish, high and mighty but that is the fake stuff. No one knows me till they talk to me, I dislike how others judge me but I cant do anything to change it. U have a bad impression on me go ahead, im not here to impress anyone. Im being myself, but then again am i? image is something t hat is a mere projection of self, the question lies in if the image of what so ever you call is a fake image you projected to make yourself look good. Then tell me whats the point in pleasing everyone and be so fake when that isn’t the real you.

Im not a person who live to impress, Im not a nasty person they ppl may think. But yes I get frustrated with things and rant but hey, Who do u think you are by going behind talking abt ppl. I would say if u have the guts Tell me straight in the face. because talking behind ppl’s back is the lowest level u can get, but then again, words are free. You can say what u want it doesn’t hurts, stick and stone does.

Try harder, im not a vengeful person but get your facts straight first.

And make sure you open your eyes wide to see clearly the things first, before casting a judgment on ppl as no one has the supreme power over others.

 Anyway no one read this.. the power of darkness is raising I can feel it in me. its coming back to me now, im sorry little rabbit but u need to go back in now. Lets hope I can see you tonight and talk to u .

 This whole month feels like a dream and its coming to an end.

When April comes, the bubble burst and it time to come back down to earth.

I dun even know what im talking about. Everything is jumble up.

Major duivel

-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:38 PM

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