Death, is only the beginning...

In Death I See Life
In Life I See Death
The Sweet Relief That I Long
The Hush Of Whispering wings
Have come to Take Me
Away, away

So which is more painful?
Death or Life?
Which would you choose?
For me there isnt any difference
For it has taken me
Away, away

Me
They call me Major DUIVEL
I have lived for 26 years
My Favourite Thing Is my watch
What i want most is lots of peaceful time
I want to be remembered by no one
I dote my DoG the most
I love my cd's the most
I love drinking and eating the most
I hate hypocrites
I dislike people who make me paranoid
I Hate it when PPL LIE
I hate it when PPl make use of me

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

wishlist(need to change)
Sony Playstation 3
~~a new cellphone~~
Nikon DSLR D90 /DSLR
~~Ipod/Iphone~~
~~external HDD~~
a new watch
~~a backpack or messenger bag~~
EUROPE TOUR
~~SIM 3~~
~~havaianas flip flop~~
a ticket to escape anyway where i want for 10 days
~~A holiday trip with my friends~~
A ************ (Haha.. not gonna tell ;P)
something else

My Friends
Evan
Mag
Li jia
Nichole(PF)
Seri
jarain
Jess
Ciara
ciara photolog

Places I Go
Blogger
Blogskins
The L word
the most recent tatu lyrics
lyrics to tatu songs!
YLC!
music video
t.A.T.u. + Rammstein
more tatu songs remix
Cool blog
Paintball guns

Talk To Me... Please

Credits
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Blogger
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Friday, April 29, 2011

It been awhile since I last blog. So much had happen and change in my absence of blogging. I didn’t really mean there is changes in myself but things around me that made my lifestyle in a mess right now.

studies is still going alright, Im still trying to cope with it as always thanks to my group of friends we are helping each other out as much as we can.
Recently I did something which I can’t undo. Which kind of was my first grave mistake after a long time, never have I been so pushed into a corner and have things shove down my throat which I can’t fight against it.
Never once the water had ripples occurring that it is actually brewing up a storm somewhere, which no matter what it like I’m going to face it with the duivel style head-on.
i somehow feel that Something had change in me and I am trying to shut that dysfunctional part down and fix it but no matter how hard I try, it just get bigger. It’s like a parchment with a drop of ink from a fountain pen holding against the paper and the link slowly seeping into the paper and it just starts to spread to its surrounding without a way to reverse the procedure. Even by lifting the pen up to stop it, it’s already too late, as once a clean parchment has already been stained. The only way is toss the paper away or find a way to cover up the stain to make it less obvious that it had been soiled.
What can I do now? I’m trying to seek a answer that I even resort asking my oracle book for answers. The best thing is that I am typing this blog with my eye close letting my finger feels it way thru the keyboard of my lappy. As its my mind speaking on its own.
How am I going to readjust everything and make it perfect for myself again?
that I’m already doubting myself what is called perfect and what is called myself when I don’t even know myself. And how could perfect a word really explain the true perfectness when that is something which can’t be obtain in any world, as go by the famous saying “nothing is perfect” .

I could see the breaking point coming on soon, so how do I make sure I hold it together for sure as I’m sure this time when it got broken thru this time it’s hard to patch things back as im very sure the our pouring feelings and thoughts and intention isn’t going to be good in any sense. Guess “I” am really going to let me be myself soon, the real me soon.
Guess I have murdered myself and let the other self take over till when it get murdered and captured by the other self and lock the “real” one up again.

WELCOME BACK To the world of darkness again.

MAJOR DUIVEL

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:51 AM