Tuesday, December 18, 2007
hey there!

while i was looking for something in my old posts i notice some funny things which i wrote and also i notice how time been zooming by. i notice some little poem thingy i posted in my blog i,myself cant even remember them but it is in those old posts which was random and i have no recollection i ever did them.

hehe... i realised i grow up so much from those days till now. have u ever read your post from the past? i doubt that there is even 10 person in this world would re-read everything. it is just like asking a kid to re-read everything they wrote in their diary would they do it? i doubt so. but reading those post causes me to smile as somehow it brings back memories at the same time memories is stored into data of words as there are some memories i had already forgotten about them.

today i went to buy godiva chocolates for mom her birthday is just around the corner i know it is nothing much cause i cant afford for those big boxes of truffles i got her a packet of chocolate plus a chocolate bar haha.. (i cant wait to hear my mom reaction to the chocolate in her room with a note i wont be home to see her reaction but yeah)
i been spending money and money and more money. 2 weeks ago i spent money on dinner with my buddies which was worth it. then i went to watch enchanted tomorrow i am gonna watch alvin and the chipmunk with my friends.

i been thinking.. and i realised the more i open up myself, the more i shut everything out. it just like what i would say in the movie spiderlilies, takeko. so i do see mysef like 90% like her. who always cant open up.
it is true even tho i might have know you for years do i always say things that is deeply embedded in me?
i just cant, cant say anything . yes i am a bottler, i bottle up everything from thoughts, feeling etc. i may be thinking of something but my facial expression could be like smiling or etc but in the head it is totally a different thing i would say no one will highly understand the complexity
goes on in my head.

i am busying planning my birthday haha... DJ paranoia is helping me with the music.
i am so not gonna release the details on this special day. it sadden me as how long ago i was wondering how my 21st birthday would turn out to be? and i was thinking of all those funny possiblities and werid things.


GTG BYe... shall carry on later
-MajorDuivel faced death at 4:23 PM

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