Death, is only the beginning...

In Death I See Life
In Life I See Death
The Sweet Relief That I Long
The Hush Of Whispering wings
Have come to Take Me
Away, away

So which is more painful?
Death or Life?
Which would you choose?
For me there isnt any difference
For it has taken me
Away, away

Me
They call me Major DUIVEL
I have lived for 26 years
My Favourite Thing Is my watch
What i want most is lots of peaceful time
I want to be remembered by no one
I dote my DoG the most
I love my cd's the most
I love drinking and eating the most
I hate hypocrites
I dislike people who make me paranoid
I Hate it when PPL LIE
I hate it when PPl make use of me

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

wishlist(need to change)
Sony Playstation 3
~~a new cellphone~~
Nikon DSLR D90 /DSLR
~~Ipod/Iphone~~
~~external HDD~~
a new watch
~~a backpack or messenger bag~~
EUROPE TOUR
~~SIM 3~~
~~havaianas flip flop~~
a ticket to escape anyway where i want for 10 days
~~A holiday trip with my friends~~
A ************ (Haha.. not gonna tell ;P)
something else

My Friends
Evan
Mag
Li jia
Nichole(PF)
Seri
jarain
Jess
Ciara
ciara photolog

Places I Go
Blogger
Blogskins
The L word
the most recent tatu lyrics
lyrics to tatu songs!
YLC!
music video
t.A.T.u. + Rammstein
more tatu songs remix
Cool blog
Paintball guns

Talk To Me... Please

Credits
Designed By Serena
Blogger
Blogskins

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Recently I have been riding an emotional rollercoaster. I felt anguish, despair, disappointment, dejection.. and others . Only a small gradient of happiness which could be easily extinguish by the other feelings.
I had officially given up hope in people and trusting them. And I can 150% say this out loud in words that I don’t trust anyone, anymore. Humanity is made up of only 1 category of people and that is people who have bad written all over them. (To my friends just read only as this doesn’t affect my friendship with you guys’ hahah) you would wonder why I would say there is only one type/category of people and not said two; good and bad, this is the reason why. In everyone there is good and bad but how often are we 90% good? And how is it possible to use percentage to weigh how good or how bad you are. In western views they believe in the 7 deadly sins and I agree with it. These 7 deadly sins are in build in everyone.

I do admit that I do, DO some of these deadly sins I won’t say I am proud of what I did. I am not that nice as what everyone thinks I am. Even if you come up to me and say “you are honestly a nice person and a good one too” and my reply would always be “I am not as good as you think I am”.
Sometimes I wonder if I could come up with what is killing the kind/good nature of the human race.
but this is like the top 3 things I currently don’t like.

1) The art of human mouth; which is using your mouth to kill people without physically touching them and such examples are Gossiping, backstabbing… and other mouth related activities such as hurling abuse at others

2) Being overly realistic; some people are so realistic that it would make the good hearted people to change. (I have seen people doing this so much that I despised it. I don’t want to give an example but I think everyone of us would be able to get an idea on this one. )

3)the almighty brain; some people would overwork their brain and try to analyze everything; looking beyond the invisible line, they scrutinize everything and keep thinking of this and that and not use their brain to do the right thing but rather look at things that doesn’t even bothered them.

I notice recently I have taken a liking to take bus trip to places. I usually will take the train to get to my destination but for these past 2 days I been using the buses instead. I am not sure but somehow I feel that when I am taking the bus I get to see what I usually miss out and not notice at all. Like today when I was on my way to yishun. which I could easily take the train and be there in 10-15 mins but I took the bus instead.(Which would be a slightly longer journey) I started to look at the surrounding and try to absorb what I saw today, and what fascinated me the most today is the clouds in the skies.
I know it sounds stupid but I saw two different group of clouds merge together and I started to wonder to myself ‘how is that even possible?, the clouds are different in mass; there was one which was in a darker shade of color that the other and It was going to pour. thus how can they just merge just like that’ the other thing I started to wonder is ‘how is it possible for the clouds to look fluffy up in the sky and if it is all about water then is it possible for us to recreate clouds on land, like in a lab?’

You see for a moment I was like a 5 year old kid wondering and looking at the world as if I never seen it before.

I had a weird dream last night and it left me pondering at it the whole day. It seems as if I am looking at a story unfolding in-front of me. I am still trying to piece out why I dreamed of that. And could it be because I listen to lala shu’s song on repeat too many times that it triggered a weird dream.

I better go now or else I would have a hard time to wake up tomorrow.

ps: My friends don’t worry haha I will trust you all enough to call u friends hahaha..

Major D.

-MajorDuivel faced death at 12:45 AM