Death, is only the beginning...

In Death I See Life
In Life I See Death
The Sweet Relief That I Long
The Hush Of Whispering wings
Have come to Take Me
Away, away

So which is more painful?
Death or Life?
Which would you choose?
For me there isnt any difference
For it has taken me
Away, away

Me
They call me Major DUIVEL
I have lived for 26 years
My Favourite Thing Is my watch
What i want most is lots of peaceful time
I want to be remembered by no one
I dote my DoG the most
I love my cd's the most
I love drinking and eating the most
I hate hypocrites
I dislike people who make me paranoid
I Hate it when PPL LIE
I hate it when PPl make use of me

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

wishlist(need to change)
Sony Playstation 3
~~a new cellphone~~
Nikon DSLR D90 /DSLR
~~Ipod/Iphone~~
~~external HDD~~
a new watch
~~a backpack or messenger bag~~
EUROPE TOUR
~~SIM 3~~
~~havaianas flip flop~~
a ticket to escape anyway where i want for 10 days
~~A holiday trip with my friends~~
A ************ (Haha.. not gonna tell ;P)
something else

My Friends
Evan
Mag
Li jia
Nichole(PF)
Seri
jarain
Jess
Ciara
ciara photolog

Places I Go
Blogger
Blogskins
The L word
the most recent tatu lyrics
lyrics to tatu songs!
YLC!
music video
t.A.T.u. + Rammstein
more tatu songs remix
Cool blog
Paintball guns

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Friday, December 17, 2010

What an emotional rollercoaster.

14months ago on 14th of October my grandma pass away. It was a very hard blow for all of us, however exactly 12 months later(1 year) we were still very stricken by the feeling that we lost a important family member around us, especially when I saw the photos of my gram. And on Tuesday morning,14 of December my auntie passed on, which was too sudden for anyone of us to accept.
Yesterday, I had the same feeling coming over me when I was on the way to the crematory(it was just the same as one year ago.) It was exactly the same type of weather and the journey to the crematory was that heavy stricken. It was raining a little when we arrived at the crematory, I couldn’t help but find it funny that during my grandma funeral. When I arrived at the crematory I rushed to look for a toilet as nature call was so spot on as always and it was the same for yesterday.

When I walked into the service hall with my relative I was shocked as this is exactly the same hall my grandma held her final service before … anyway there is too many coincident, 14th of the month with a duration of 14 months apart, 14 seems to be like the number which seems to be appearing among us.

the service where some familiar ppl coming to wish us for our lost. Felt so similar to my grandma that I was slightly sadden by it as memories of that day keep appearing before me.
The worst part was the viewing gallery which my grandma coffin was set into, was the same one as my grandma again. this time when I was inside I was trying to control my emotion but it started to flow out as I saw my auntie coffin being loaded into the roller device. The wail of my cousin and niece caused every family member to cry and even my brother whom I saw was holding it back too was tearing while looking out for my cousin just in case he might faint or bump his head,whereas I was supporting my niece from the back. For that moment of time I was very convince that it was like my grandma funeral again.

I told another cousin “the duration is too short…” “to short for us all to recover after what happen last year” twice once was 2 days ago and another was before the final service. There was this particular song which when they started playing all of us was choked in tears that even my brother would run away from It. I name that song as the “killer”song as it will definitely cause everyone of us to burst into tears immediately.

We will be okay, my family (relative and cousins) we will pull this thru and be okay in time.

Major Duivel

There is never a lasting Hello as there is a Forever Goodbye.

-MajorDuivel faced death at 11:59 PM